#anyways if anyone from my latest failure or a server sees this hello and goodbye

[whimsyprinx]

I am so incredibly bad at friendship

#whimsy whispers #whims woes #yet another discord server fell through. you’d think I would’ve stopped trying sooner but I didn’t because I am stupid #I can’t keep a server active to save my life nor can I keep a conversation going in general #nor do I believe I’m worth anyone’s time and effort when it comes to reaching out and talking #it’s very easy for me to put their theory to test and be proven right #if I stop reaching out first (which i have) i won’t hear from y’all and like I get it’s hard to reach out to people I really do but at this #point I don’t even feel like most of y’all even want to be friends anymore so like idk I’m done trying for now #maybe I’m not putting in enough effort but like idk I thought I was or maybe I was being overbearing and doing too much #there’s like nothing else to be done because idk what to do #it’s so pathetic too because eventually I always cave and reach out first like a loser and the issue rinses and repeats and repeats and #repeats #like god I just want to feel like I’m worth the time and like people do actually want to be friends with me #or I’d like to be told that that isn’t the case up front #but I don’t feel like either thing will happen #anyways if anyone from my latest failure or a server sees this hello and goodbye #I’m not going to make y’all stay in a dead server that gets maybe a few messages each month #and I’m also going to not bother you privately anymore because what good does that do anyone? #eventually I’m not going to have any friends #I don’t even want to say this is me pushing people away because I’d love if people actually wanted to speak to me and if people do talk to #me I do happily reply #I just give up on putting in effort when it’s like no one cares #I cannot for my life maintain a friendship despite my best efforts so I’m just like taking a break from trying