Hey, Art! It's been so long since I logged in. Life has been so busy so I got not time. I missed this place so much! and I missed you! This is so long so excuse the comeback of my yapping gig!
First of all, I love love love the symbolism of bed and sleeping as the levels of vulnerability in the relationship.
THE FALLING - I really love and admire how much you made me antsy and nervous about their conversation and how the night will lead them during their first sleepover. With their dialogues, and Jungkook's internal monologue of wanting to grab the opportunity of spending a little more time with oc but also not wanting come off as a creep or someone who takes advantage of them, then there's oc making light of things Jungkook usually overthinks about. A great introduction of how their dynamic will be - also oc taking importance of their shared moment crying about an anime movie that they felt comfortable having him around, I see that as how oc values vulnerability itself and the people that shows them theirs - if this the first fic you will read about them. Another thing, I cannot recall all of them at this moment but Jungkook really loves oc's eyes and how expressive they are, I adore how you used our collective admiration of Jungkook's eyes to him understanding a new perspective of love, it is a classic way of describing an epiphany. I love you so much for that, Artie! I'm a sucker for yearning and I can say that maybe this could be one of my favorite parts of this installment. The awkwardness, the dead air that I could feel, and the funny butterflies on Jungkook's tummy is something I could feel too! He is noticing the little things and he knows he is ruined then and there!
ALLOW ME TO LINGER BY THE DOOR - First of all, the way that the first line completely contrasts the first part. "Hey, it's getting late. Shouldn't you be heading home by now?" (as if they don't know that Jk's gonna wanna stay), oc and their playful antics istg! The moment where Jk realized that they shared a straw and oc being so nonchalant about it, while he is internally exploding. Wait, I changed my mind! This is my most favorite part because of how you perfectly depicted the thing where Jungkook lied about not bringing his own clothes and actually planning to sleepover from the start. It's so funny and endearing at the same time because, yes! I would do the same if I were the one in his position and will definitely bask in oc's presence and charms. I, too, would accept my place to hell. Hahaha! Oh, Art, the way you play with my feelings, following that funny moment with their first intimate moment imo. The physical touch, the very close proximity, the domesticity of the act, and oc talking about a story from their past. Easily the most romantic thing ever. Especially the part where oc snorted and puts their forehead on Jk's back? My tummy feels so warm. The unexpected kiss from oc? I squealed and kick my feet in the air so hard! The little moments that you choose to narrate are one of a kind, Art. I'll forever dream about it happening to me. On the other hand, I know oc enjoys the moment too in many ways possible hehe.
THE YEARNING - Not gonna lie, this part is hard for me to read because this is something I would do drunk and I would feel so embarassed having a person like Jungkook to deal with me. But enough of me, this part of their story made me realize how much Jungkook went out of his shell to join or pick-up oc with their unexpected and silly antics. It made me think of a recurring thought while reading it - if it's not for oc, he wouldn't; if it's not with oc, he wouldn't; if it's not oc, he wouldn't do nor experience all the things. It reminded me of that drabble where Jungkook realized that his love for oc is persevering, this moment of them is a glimpse of how he would always, always choose oc. He's not even the boyfriend, yet he kneels before them to tend to them. Also, the different phases of denial in Jungkook's part and how you used being mad with it is so funny. I like it so much. (The cherry red dress though, oc's sense of style is chef's kiss hehe) Now, having these thoughts made me think of how many more sides of love they have that we haven't seen yet.
HAPPINESS OUTSIDE DAYDREAMS - Ugh! I'm a sucker for this, Art! The first line is so cute and teasing and it introduced us to the next level in their relationship. He's officially the boyfriend! Everybody cheers! I've read so much installment that featured a scene where Jk called oc baby in so many ways yet having the context and experience of the previous parts made this "come here, baby." so fucking sweet! Like, that feeling where you new boyfriend didn't addressed you by your name, that moment where your new friend introduced you as their bestfriend, or that feeling when you got called as a student majoring in a course you've been dreaming about? That proud and exciting feeling of anticipation and contentment. Made me bury my face on my pillow! How you described the happiness Jungkook's feeling is on point, it made me smile like fool, Art. Like, I've been rooting for them, for him since the first part then yes! finally! Here we are!
THE SPRING FLOWER IN THE EYE OF THE STORM - Art, when I tell that this slightly smutty part made me cry more than feeling hot and bothered would you hate me? 😔For some reason, I've been anticipating a smutty part of them ever since you gave us a glimpse but to be honest, I just really ache to see how you perceive their first time will be and…. I am speechless, it is full of mixed emotions, it is exciting, and it is painful in a way that it's because it felt like oc has finally came home. Like, all the path they took in the past, no matter if they go back and change it, they will eventually, and inevitably lead to Jungkook. It is silly and lighthearted yet the undertones of it all makes it all the more romantic. I don't know but I specifically listened to intro (end of the world) by ariana grande during this part. It is so fitting, from the lyrics, the calm, sweet, and lovely sound, to and ariana's mellow singing.
if only you could see yourself through his eyes, even for just a moment, then maybe you’d understand why he’s dancing with fire and folding with his tower of cards. This part perfectly encaptured the thing about oc, it sucks because in any universe, they won't ever know half of the love Jungkook carries for them and them only. The beauty of love and commitment, trusting and giving them your heart, hoping and praying they won't take it for granted and loving them back beyond the reasons and without the reasons.
the burning tears that drip down to your temples are lost evidence you will bring to the grave. You broke me in this part, Art.
SPEAKING TRUTHFULLY YOU'RE THE ONE FOR ME - "You are my rest." To be called someone's rest is to be told that loving you is a nature to them. Something that doesn't require concious effort, something that doesn't need much thinking, something that doesn't require energy from them but a source for them. This such a beautiful phrase you add there. Ahh! I am being too sappy, making deep of the little and silly things but that's just how it is with my favorite couple! Again, the topic of proximity and perspectives as a reoccuring theme and you never fail to give us new idea to ponder to. I adore how Jungkook answered oc's question about his 'options'. I agree, you don't choose other because it is simply not the person you love. It is so cute how they addressed Jungkook's obvious infatuation from the beginning hehe, such a cute moment.
CHOICE TO STAY - I really love it when they call each other 'lover' like you recognize that person as someone who loves you, and you own it, and you know you deserve it that's why you do. Like it's such a validating and romantic thing. Writing my thoughts about this part makes me want to cry because I got reminded of how Jungkook want him and oc to die together. Their conversation here made me realize how much of a fearless lover oc is when it comes to him. They've shown it many times before but it never fails to amaze me how you wrote it differently every single time, and the degrees make me want to set the whole world on fire including hell. I love how they are so open and communicating to each other even if some conversations are painful to have.
The archive part is a compensation for my shaken heart. I lost count of how many deep breathes I took writing this. This is the first that I read from a long time and I was attacked by a big wave of love and wonder. As I always say, I thank the universe for making me alive in the same time as you. I love reading book but no book can make me feel the way your works do. I love you! Thank you for sharing this to us! Mwah!
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my beloved swan anonie 🥺🥺🥺 oh how i’ve missed you!!!!!! i received this ask as i was about to sleep last night but i couldn’t help but to read it even with eyes blurry from sleepy tears. safe to say i went to sleep with a smile on my face :") also the words yapping gig is making me giggle until now LOL you’re so cute i love you. thank you so much for finding my works and this one in particular worthy of your time to yap about :P i wish i can squish in the biggest hug ever
I cannot recall all of them at this moment but Jungkook really loves oc's eyes and how expressive they are, I adore how you used our collective admiration of Jungkook's eyes to him understanding a new perspective of love, it is a classic way of describing an epiphany.
me blushing giggling and kicking my feet rn. i was kinda emotional when i came up with that honestly </3
The awkwardness, the dead air that I could feel, and the funny butterflies on Jungkook's tummy is something I could feel too! He is noticing the little things and he knows he is ruined then and there!
eeekkk i’m so happy 🥹 you have no idea how much i enjoy writing these pre-official relationship moments like oh my god these lovesick fools.
First of all, the way that the first line completely contrasts the first part. "Hey, it's getting late. Shouldn't you be heading home by now?" (as if they don't know that Jk's gonna wanna stay), oc and their playful antics istg!
that’s a real reader right there lmfao i adore you 😭😭😭
Wait, I changed my mind! This is my most favorite part because of how you perfectly depicted the thing where Jungkook lied about not bringing his own clothes and actually planning to sleepover from the start. It's so funny and endearing at the same time because, yes! I would do the same if I were the one in his position and will definitely bask in oc's presence and charms.
I AM SO GLAD U POINTED THIS OUT BC I WAS LAUGHING WHILE WRITING IT 😭😭😭 my man came prepared with his own boy clothes
The unexpected kiss from oc? I squealed and kick my feet in the air so hard!
same but i have two sides. the other being: i was kinda jealous of him tbh 😒
It made me think of a recurring thought while reading it - if it's not for oc, he wouldn't; if it's not with oc, he wouldn't; if it's not oc, he wouldn't do nor experience all the things.
what are you gonna do now that you’ve made me cry??? is this revenge???? 😭💔 oh my god i’m never forgetting this ever
Art, when I tell that this slightly smutty part made me cry more than feeling hot and bothered would you hate me? 😔
and when i tell you that was actually my plan all along would you hate me? 🥺🥺🥺 more than the act itself, it was such a meaningful night in oc’s part in terms of love and how they view it and i really reallyyy wanted to show that :(
This part perfectly encaptured the thing about oc, it sucks because in any universe, they won't ever know half of the love Jungkook carries for them and them only.
*insert every crying meme on the internet* no because they know!!! but do they actually know???????!!
"You are my rest." To be called someone's rest is to be told that loving you is a nature to them. Something that doesn't require concious effort, something that doesn't need much thinking, something that doesn't require energy from them but a source for them.
my beloved :( you said it so perfectly there are tears in my eyes.
Again, the topic of proximity and perspectives as a reoccuring theme and you never fail to give us new idea to ponder to.
really played around with this one hehehe it was so much fun and gave me a lot to think about too!!
Their conversation here made me realize how much of a fearless lover oc is when it comes to him. They've shown it many times before but it never fails to amaze me how you wrote it differently every single time, and the degrees make me want to set the whole world on fire including hell.
🫣 and you still haven’t seen all of it. writing it always makes me think that damn, it is such a privilege to be loved by them :(
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