#backup coping mechanisms arent even accessible rn how the fuck am I supposed to vent these feelings safely. ugh

[toastsnaffler]

hmm. I think I am maybe not coping very well 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔

#sorry for angry venting im very upset + frustrated + have to put it somewhere just ignore me #I hate being on such a hair trigger all the time hate feeling everything so violently why can't I just feel shit like a normal person!!!! #most stupid and pointless thing to say ever but its so not fair!!!!!!!! its so fucking unfair #like I would never want anyone else to feel like this ever but why should I!!!!! fucks sake fucking hell i want to bash my head thru a wall #whatever. whatever!!!!!! #I wish I had someone safe to talk to I wish I could trust ppl and be open with them and not have to control every tiny fucking thing #just to make myself small enough and tolerable enough for anyone to be around I wish I was enough!!!!!! #but its fucking stupid to even wish bc I have to do all the work myself and its never enough and eventually ill die abt it. whatever. #backup coping mechanisms arent even accessible rn how the fuck am I supposed to vent these feelings safely. ugh #its fine ill be fine i need to take a fucking shower and eat #.vent