#bc again fandom lifespan has shortened a LOT in recent years and I hate that but it's still the nature of things

[daincrediblegg]

I think I have to take a break from ACTIVELY trying to write. Because honestly every time I've tried this whole week AND last I've just become full of anxiety and bad vibes and I really have to fucking stop

#Like... and I have SO much I want to get out but trying to get the words out feels like pulling teeth??? and it shouldn't #would y'all be all right if I just drew shit and answered asks for a while? because I think I need a break from that shit #I mean also ofc alternatively I would absolutely make comics #but idk if I have the patience to deal with page layout unless I did longform strips #which would probably make my old comics professor groan a lil but my guy it's gonna be posted online not print scroll format works for this #and I mean I basically have all the scripts I need to make comics out of my shit but... it'd still be a lot to draw everything ugh #idk all I know is I really need to stop inflaming this burnout #and it's like this... and trying to do everything digitally like lmao idk why but everything feels way better on paper #idk man. idk #and worse yet I feel like there's an IMPERATIVE for me to produce bc the fandoms I'm in have thinned out a LOT #bc again fandom lifespan has shortened a LOT in recent years and I hate that but it's still the nature of things #so then it feels like 'well nobody's posting someone has to! I have to keep it alive so I don't lose my own motivation!' #but then I force it and the result is just... piss poor #ugh. just. end me.