#bc he was like rlly lax about everything and after catscan he's certain that the increased artery pressure in my lungs is from my heart

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#i don't know why but three days later i feel like.. .weird uneasy about my pulmonologist appointment #LIKE i felt so relieved after the appointment wednesday and now i'm second guessing it and being like.. .but am i ok doe??? #bc he was like rlly lax about everything and after catscan he's certain that the increased artery pressure in my lungs is from my heart #being a little wonky and pumping back some blood the wrong way #and not from the artery itself which... it's not the /dangerous bad gonna kill you/ type #(which is what my cardio said too) #but with how both my cardiologist and gyno reacted to that echo result im like... uh hhh should i be seeing a different lung doctor #i mean i gotta go back to the lung doctor in 6 months for a repeat of the lung function and stress test to see if results are same #idk?????? like i saw my gyno in passing for a prescription refill and he had 0.0 face about that result #cuz my pulmonary pressure on my echo was 41.........and i was warned by my cardio that that's shanking borderline #and the pulmonary doctor didn't even mention SHANK like did i need to be shanked??? #like id rather be shanked if it confirmed that my lungs won't make me throw a clot thank u very much multiple relatives of mine have #had strokes and they SUCK #i see him next wednesday for my 6 months checkup which... im planning to have a long discussion about my pills with him #bc he's SO weirdly protective of me bc he dealt with the fallout of my mom's stroke 30 years ago #and also was the one who sent her out for her cancer referrals (i love my family but holy shit we're cursed) #like i've been seeing him for a decade tho... so i trust him fully..... LOL #so i'll just mention this to him too... cuz also like... heart valve wonk also affects if i wanna have bio kids #(also doctor that deals with babies may know of a different gene place i can go to bc im on waitlists lol) #wow i lik....e.... kermit... this is not fair LOL... #i should just trust the lung doctor... but i will ask my hooha doctor about what the lung doctor said to be safe LOL #personal