#bc it's so true???? i can't fill the void i have with chocolate and other unhealthy food no matter how much i consume it

[hellogloom]

here to make my weekly opening up about life in the tags-post 😌👍

#okay first of all!!!! last week of internship started today and it's............... strange? #i feel like it started like yesterday but it's been five weeks already #i got really lucky with the ward that i've been working at though everyone there is so nice including the patients 💞💞💞 #i've learned SOOOO much more than i ever could reading from a book or listening in class #it is honestly kinda sad that it's over after friday :( #other thing is that my binging disorder has gotten even worse during the last couple of weeks #and when i was talking to my doctor about it i told her it's hard because even if i feel lliterally sick and 10000000% full i can't stop #and she said something about ''you're not eating for the kinda hunger that can be fulfilled with food'' and it really resonated with me #bc it's so true???? i can't fill the void i have with chocolate and other unhealthy food no matter how much i consume it #bc it's an emotional one #doing this to myself makes me wanna *** 🥲👍 #i've put on like +30kgs in just a few years it's insane #and it's not even about the way i look it's the way i feel in this body that is so unhealthy #and i know it's my own fault!!!!!!!!!!! #i also feel really alone with it because i know the way people see binging is just #''stop eating as much 😌 just don't buy snacks 😌'' #when the fact is that it's something i have no control over #anyway 💔 #rant time over time to maybe gif something and watch bad reality tv <33333 #ofe.txt #eating disorder tw