#bc of the hermit crab shell i had to retreat into to figured my shit out

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ik Doing It Scared is a massive part of helping anxiety and just life in general but I'm still mad about it

#doing a conservation thing tomorrow with a new organisation and a new group if people #using my new name and being a dude for the first time with people i don't know and trust #so scared and not looking forward to the gonna puke feeling tomorrow #but i gotta remember that its some kind of miracle that i am just grumbly and vaguely apprehensive about it right now #instead of one giant anxiety spiral for two weeks straight beforehand #and i have some kind of grasp on the concept that anyone would be nervous with new people in a new place #and its fine to feel that and it doesn't say anything about how its gonna go or my ability to cope #and with the trans thing thousands upon thousands of trans people have been through the same thing #and it will get better and easier to be myself and assert myself the more i do it #and the more positive and neutral experiences i have #i have the right to exist!! #i have the right to exist as myself without question #and to be addressed and respected how i choose #n e way wish me luck lmao im just very rusty ín the field of Doing Things #bc of the hermit crab shell i had to retreat into to figured my shit out