#bc with the post-traumatic amnesia and brain damage besides i come to it as a spectator / interloper

[mycannibalromance]

i dont think we talk about how deeply unsettling it is to look at old pictures of yourself enough

#this cannot possibly be just a me thing can it #i HATE it but i have this bizarre fascination with my own childhood photos and by extension my own childhood #bc with the post-traumatic amnesia and brain damage besides i come to it as a spectator / interloper #but with the implicit knowledge that That Is Me. Was Me. Who Am I. Who Was That. #i always joke about pictures of myself as a young kid/teenager like. who looked at me and thought that was a healthy welladjusted child lol #there's something WRONG with that kid lmaoooo isn't it funny how obvious it was that i was actually wasting away lol #i dont know im having a. really hard time articulating this