#becaus ei think thats the root of it all

[orlamccools]

there is so much i miss i feel like i am drowning in it constanly

#i am so constantly missing the past i can never enjoy the present #even though the present now is boring #maddie mumbles #what im missing rn: helen elisabeth the ydsa guys aeneas and our friendship iowa sunsets classes at iowa #the tater tots from burge dining hall and the feeling of actually having some ifea of what the future will look like #becaus ei think thats the root of it all #i miss having a general idea of what my world would look like ten years in the future #nowadays i can barelt predict what will happen tomorrow and im so jaded to everything and i miss having some sembalance of reality #anyways igonre me