#because he reminds him of home where chip n jay arent really able to do that yknow?

[ghost-bard]

Im thinking about the fact that Gillion used to talk to Caspian (and probably marshall john as well) every night. He would train while talking to him, he would tell him about the goings on of the albatross, he would tell him the things that troubled him.

And now he can’t.

Caspian, someone who Gillion is infinitely comfortable with, someone who was essentially his safe space, has seemingly disappeared from Gillions everyday life. And it was by his own actions.

I think about the fact that Gillion, under normal circumstances, most likely would have told Caspian about his nightmares, about his encounter with Vice Admiral Kuba Kenta.

Caspian would be able to sooth Gillion, in ways that Chip or Jay could not (whether or not it’s because they are so different from Gillion where Caspian feels like his home is something he still grapples with), so what is he to do when the ability to talk to him is gone?

He makes do.

He shoulders the burden, just as he once did, because at least Chip can sleep easier at night.

At least it’s Gillion who is burdened by torturous nightmares, and not Chip or Jay.

He can deal with the burdens of others.

He can make do with out his comforts.

He can survive while looking forward to nothing.

Because what else should a champion do?

#jrwi #just roll with it #jrwi riptide #riptide pirates #jrwi swordfish #jrwi chip #jay ferin #gillion tidestrider #jrwi caspian #jrwi spoilers #jrwi analysis #im so normal rn #i was once again thinking about gillion tidestrider and burden #he is so #sad lmao #anyway i really thinking that caspian was sort of a safe space for gillion #because he reminds him of home where chip n jay arent really able to do that yknow? #and even if he considers the albatross his home now? caspian still gives him a sense of familiarity #that most ppl/places do not #everything is unusual to him!! he knows fuckall about the oversea!! #anyway swordfish in my head is either incredibly queer platonic or extremely romantic there is no in between #its my aroace ass wanting to be in a qpr vs my love of romance and romantic stories