#but god damn i did it and um glad i did butnalso god he was the bwst and i wish it worked propperly

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#tiny talking #so im at camp and very suepr tired and also bene drinking a little so im not spell reading this #but so ive been talkign tonthisndude for a bit and we started daring #dtaing #to see what happens since wevee been freinds for legit years and i was still iffy about my aroace because udk maybe #and ive vene thinkigna biut breakignyp for minths but we justbahvent rlaked and i hate to not be a people pleaser so ive bene putting it of #and trying to just construct the whole message an dppanbit all but that doesnt work ykniw #and i finally tonight got a coupel drinks and sent a message (becaus ei knew i woudl ramble and apolpgoze and eveyronr #either if i was sober or notbso inhave more of an excuse now but just for the rambling yknoe) #and god he was so fucking jcie and underatsnding about me sating am aroace and apologolize #and god damn man i started tearing up and theres no right what yi sat things over text without iverthinkign it #and i defiantly qasnt gonna call because one im with other peopel and have a broken ankle #so i cant just go walk off and call then come abck wirhotu strugglign #and becuae i can never outload speak of things that is inporatn or argmuentative or abything #and i dont think i coudl do it wirhout tesring up a bit beciase god dman #but god damn i did it and um glad i did butnalso god he was the bwst and i wish it worked propperly #but i just didnt fele it so yknow whays best is to not lead it on mroe and all thag gut fyck man #this gonesly wanst even an actualnpsot i just wanted to say this soemqhere because ita bene on y midn a bunch #and no one even really knew i was seeing him because one nobone asked and too i wasnt gonantell them #because whyshoydl they know. who cares who im dsting because we werent ecen labled yntil a little whilr ago #and even after like i was still jsy hangung with my friend who i ahppene to be kinda dating so who cares #anywyas ive eben rmabling since the beginingn #um actually gona. do one more tint talks tongiht since its been soenthing elsneive beenbthiningnof #and just want off my mind and its not mwant tk guolt trip or anything but its just soenthing i saw and tho7ghtnof