#but i sure hope there's some relation to some hormonal stuff that makes it wayyy worse than it would normally be

[tardis--dreams]

Ok i really hope this is my period finally approaching because i don't want This depressive state to be my normal everyday state now

#come on #it's been 80 days #i kinda wanted to go another 30 days without it so i wouldn't have to go through the pain of cleaning and sterilizing my cup #here again #but I've been feeling the pinching pain announcing it for a few days now so i guess it's gonna happen soon #(although experience shows it can take up to 2 weeks from then on but oh well #i bet it comes next week when i am away over the weekend again to make everything as insufferable as possible) #and idk it might be me thinking about my life a bit too much which causes this deep dread and hopelessness #but i sure hope there's some relation to some hormonal stuff that makes it wayyy worse than it would normally be #because boy oh boy. not fun #or maybe I'm just regular depressed and this Is in fact my normal state #guess we'll find out in hopefully a few days (or weeks) #void screams