#but like boundaries are fluid and/or meaningless to them so why would he give a fuck what clothes ppl think he should wear

[wereshrew-admirer]

long work day today but in my heart of hearts i'm drawing chine in a dress having a great time, because, gender i guess.

no alterations to their appearance otherwise, maybe somebody's convinced them to wash their hair, but only for the sensory experience of having some bounce to it afterwards, y'know?

i just..am ruminating on how good it feels to be so incongruous with people's expectations without any fear at all? or more, even, with the sense of power that comes from frightening cis people when you yourself are confident in your safety?

not even a hint of chine being embarrassed about it, just straight to the joy - slap a few flowers in their shitty beard and dare somebody to say something <3

#idk my headcanon with chine re:gender is not so much about gender at all #more in that they're a he/they because their relationship with humanity is tenuous #and any bleed into gender is secondary #but like boundaries are fluid and/or meaningless to them so why would he give a fuck what clothes ppl think he should wear #also i'm projecting because i scared a man out of the bathroom last week and instead of having a panic about it i felt this huge wave of #gender euphoria? #this could only happen at work because i've been here 10 years and everyone is habituated to me #and because i dont go anywhere in public much anymore since covid #so most of my experiences with unfamiliar people is that nobody reacts to me wearing a dress anymore? #so when a new hire did react it was a surprise? #and the realization that it was a surprise felt SO POWERFUL #god i just love being visibly trans #i want to depict obviously-testoserone-dominant people in flowy comfortable clothes without makingany effort to look traditionally feminine #this is the height of gender for me #and i know the table friends tend to depict worlds in which clothes aren't gendered anyway #but the incongrousness can come from folks associating dresses with delicacy (also wrong) instead if you want to imagine the world that way #i prefer my fantasy with a side of real-world struggle so that the payoff feels more worth it personally but to each their own