#but lmaoooo that doesnt matter lol lmao rofl fuck this guy this guy doesnt know what hes talking about

[possibly-eli]

i dont understand what about this is so difficult for people to comprehend:

i just kinda want my thoughts on opinions on MY OWN HEALTH to be entertained instead of immediately disregarded

like. im 17. i shouldnt be having back pain so often. i shouldnt be having such severe leg pain. i shouldnt be dealing with such shitty hand joints. but FUCK ME i guess i dont get a say in jack SHIT about my own health!!!!! because what i say means fuck all!!!!! ok man!!!! whatever i guess!!!!!!!

#its shit like THIS that makes me TERRIFIED to bring shit up to my therapist #i cant tell her if i have an idea on what might be wrong with me because shell probably just NOT LISTEN TO ME #because thats what my LAST therapist did #and what my mother CONSTANTLY DOES #FUCK #this is why i have to self-diagnose by the fucking way #not that its any of your goddamn business what we do and why #its because of Trauma and Stigma and the fact we already Have autism so apparently. according to The Law or something #that means i cant be mentally ill in any Other way #so i GUESS ill go Fuck myself and have to deal with only being self-diagnosed with adhd. and atypical depression #and c-ptsd. for the rest of my life #and not get any treatment for anything despite it directly impacting my quality of life #and maybe being connected to my shitty memory issues #but lmaoooo that doesnt matter lol lmao rofl fuck this guy this guy doesnt know what hes talking about #how could any mentally ill person have an idea on whats wrong with them Thats Not How It Works #did i mention that that was a mindset i had btw #i dunno where i picked it up but probably from my parents #“a mentally ill person doesnt know theyre mentally ill” thats the stupidest shit ive heard in my life #also im not going to debate the validity of my mental illness with you #i have npd. that is a fact because of LITERALLY. FUCKING EVERTHING #im just not pursuing a Professional Diagnosis at this time because it wont do anything for me and itll be more trouble than its worth #and if i have my knowledge on That questioned i might Actually kill myself