#but rather just some cookiecuter girl with which he could play house ala romantic anime

[lumielwinchester]

I'm watching "My happy marriage" on Netflix and God damn is this girl annoying! People are throwing her less than breadcrumbs and she thanks them for it. Hell, those the "good-ish guys" are throwing her fucking rat poison and she still thanks them for it.

I was hoping there'd be some character growth, that she learns to recognise the abuse around her and learns to stand up for herself. And while there's been some of that as well as trusting her husband's family that is actually worth trusting. She still not even remotely recognises, how 95% of people don't give a shit about her personally and only want to use her for her power. Half her family literally abused her because they thought she had no power and the other half left her to that abuse before they found out she would be useful. And this girl still fucking thanks them for it!!!

She has been abused for such a long time and the fact that no one sits her down and explains to her that it wasn't her fault, that she didn't deserve to be treated like that and needs to ask for help, if ever anyone else locks her away or forces her to do things she doesn't want to do, is upsetting in its own right.

God damn it. I hate romantic anime.

#i might hate it less if my last ex didn't ecpect me to fucking act like a girl from a romantic anime #seeing it now upsets me even more #cause while the husband is stereotypical cold and distant in the beginning he quickly sees her for who she really is and what issues she #has and tries his best to help #and yes that is super sweet and romantic in tv #but fuck if it doesn't make it more obvious to me now that my ex never actually fing saw me #but rather just some cookiecuter girl with which he could play house ala romantic anime #that should feels the greates joy and satisfaction and love for him at the toniest thing he does #even if it is not something i asked for or wanted #god damn he expected me to read his emotions at every time and now what he needed and couldnt ever ask for help but he couldn't even be #bothered to try and see my issues and go and help me #not that i need my partner to fix me #but the god damn hypocrisy #watching this show is eye-opening to a degree i feel i dont even have eyelids anymore #i am truly upset right now #lumi talks