#but shes never blamed me for it. its just smth ive internalized from experiences w my dad and other authority figures

[angeltrapz]

after crying for over an hour I have decided to go the fuck to bed

#actually got sent home from work bc i couldnt stop crying <3 lmao #monday rlly said 'emotional breakdown time? now? right now???' #i know i need to stop punishing myself this way too but i feel so bad bc my mom already has enough shit to deal with #aside from. whatever that was. like it makes me feel like a horrible person to do that when shes so stressed #but shes never blamed me for it. its just smth ive internalized from experiences w my dad and other authority figures #not her or my grandma though #its just. fuck. okay. were doing this now #connor.vtxt #i am such a mess rn lmao im sorry #ill be okay eventually #maybe write smth soft when i get up #or play animal crossing