#but sometimes I just come home feeling so apathetic and drained and I have horrible thoughts

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nvm I’m not done ☝️

#working at an animal hospital is cool i guess it feels nice to be able to do what i can now #considering i started from having just a little bit of kennel experience to moving up and now administering vaccines and brawling blood #among other treatmeants it’s kinda crazy to think about but anyways. on the days it gets super overwhelming and frustrating by the time #i leave work sometimes I find myself so fucking tired and exhausted from seeing animals all day and having to deal with people #that i don’t want to see another animal for at least the rest of the day and i sometimes feel like I can’t even tolerate seeing my own dog #and that kind of scares me because she means so much to me and im only here because of her #but sometimes I just come home feeling so apathetic and drained and I have horrible thoughts #and then it makes me wonder if I even love her anymore and that scares me even more because if I don’t then what am I doing here #idk just something g heavy on my mind I’ve been thinking about lately. or trying not to think about lately but since I’m feeling worse #it kinda caught up to me #and that’s not even getting into the fact that i don’t even wanna work here anymore but i have no fucking clue what’d to do if i left #so im just very stuck. in the physical and mental sense #blah