#but where’s robertas’s doc about lupe’s backstory

[thekintsugidyke]

anyway tho I love the moose jaw winter fics. absolutely adore the new york apartment fics. but where are the jesslupe fics where jess is the one following lupe back home. facing your past finding closure having someone on your side while you do it. where’s my catholic guilt my latine upbringing fucking up lupe so fucking much jess can barely handle it. where’s jess seeing lupe’s kid (even if it’s from a distance) and finally understanding the whole esti debacle in a much deeper way. where’s jess being the shortstop to lupe’s pitcher even outside the field.

#had these thoughts on the bus today #and they won’t leave me alone #yeah Kelly has her 40 pg doc about jess #but where’s robertas’s doc about lupe’s backstory #like truly so much jess backstory in all the fics #I’m still to find one that truly scratches my brain when it comes to Lupe and all her shit and baggage #jess mccready #jess x lupe #lupe garcia #lupe garcía #jelupe #jesslupe #jess and lupe #aloto #a league of their own

[thekintsugidyke]

watched a podcast with roberta today where she talks about her coming out process and the whole figuring out she was a lesbian and it was so intense. I kept thinking about how she’s mentioned that on aloto they all contributed to the creation and backstories of the characters, and kelly has also talked about all her suggestions and the 40 page doc for Jess and how some things are so similar to herself and so on.

So it got me thinking about Lupe’s backstory AGAIN. More specifically if Roberta also drew some connection to herself with the character. The religious latine background is there in full, and it must have been Something to play it. but there’s also the late-bloomeness of it that Roberta talks about in the podcast, how much she tried to overcompensate in some things even though she wasn’t fully conscious of “oh, I’m gay”. And I can see that with Lupe so much, in how she is clearly uncomfortable with the dresses and charm school and the whole femininity performance, while at the same time showing a kind of resignation towards it, like she’d done it before and had learned how to do it in an almost adequate way, a passable way.

Bottom line is I’m still so fucking hung up on Lupe’s baggage and how little we got to see of it while also having a lot of information thrown at us. And Roberta is so fucking elusive and private even in settings where she’s there to talk about those things.

#Anyway I have absolutely no ideia what this is supposed to be #it’s almost 4am #and I should’ve gone to bed ages ago #but the bit about her getting grey hairs right after sleeping with a girl for the first time #and then after getting the grey streak #and her mom going dead ass #“you have secrets now“ #bc LatAm am i right #and apparently you start getting grey hairs when you start keeping secrets #Roberta please TALK #like whatever it’s her life obviously #but she’s SO interesting and seems to have such interesting and intelligent views on things #but she always always talks about it in such little details #never expanding too much #I GET CURIOUS #for a gemini she’s really low key with the oversharing #lupe garcía #roberta colindrez #but where’s robertas’s doc about lupe’s backstory