#but yeah im!!!!! still weepy and anxious 24/7

[soldier-poet-king]

tattoo follow up + consult officially booked for monday after work and i am nervous but also excited because i KNOW this is something i want, i just have to be politely assertive and self-advocate in telling my artist what i want (she's not pushy at all, i am just anxious and shy and a people pleaser and go along with whatever because im afraid of disagreement)

but ALSO my mother is like >:/ and i WISH i could just enjoy this thing instead of having the anxiety of juggling her judgment on top of it all

#the duality of fran #bro 1 and 2 simply do not give a fuck and dont live with this anxiety #and im jealous #why was I the parentified neglected manipulated child #(it's bc im the eldest and a girl) #but yeah im!!!!! still weepy and anxious 24/7