#capabilities their similarities and enable her to surpass him once and for all bc she Knows him now..horror! horror! horror!

[meaganfoster]

kind of horrifying but also freeing how with enough time to let it simmer you can come to accept anything

#not putting this in the main post. i can understand how ppl think daudbillie fucking is real. i can see how they fucked one (1) time #and how it does not change dauds (fucked up) perception of billie at all but its a fundamental realignment for her. cant figure out when it #couldve happened though. definitely not the week of delilah but wouldnt it be so messy so grotesque so perfect if that was the case.. #billie giving in to what she thinks they both rlly want and need bc she wont be able to again. billie thinking this will cement her #capabilities their similarities and enable her to surpass him once and for all bc she Knows him now..horror! horror! horror! #billie using it as a shield against her guilt for betraying him #but only getting more twisted up and confused in the process #bc she is so close to understanding the truth of her weaponization and damage but doing that would mean relinquishing possession #of her ambition (due to its now tainted)......at least in her worldview. #billie lurk blogging #i dont have a strong hold on dauds character bc i simply never think about him. which is unfortunate bc understanding him #is crucial to understanding billie. so hard for girls who dont care abt him beyond her relationship with him.......