#cats.writes

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

You know what. Fuck it. Hi tumblr. Woe, poem about the intersections of hair cutting, transmasculinity, and dog imagery be upon ye

#i sat down at my poetry doc and blacked out. came to with this in front of me #I just. god. there’s something about hair cutting and freedom and the power it gives you #this Samson is his own Delilah is probably my favourite line. I can’t explain it it just is #cats.writes

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

She mcyt on my aro till i week . Uhm . PURPLE DUO HANAHAKI for the prompt trope subversion!!!!! @mcyt-aro-week

#lifesteal smp #purple duo #mcyt aro week #HOUGH I have been waiting so long to start posting my aro week fics. literally vibrating with excitement #spent far too long teasing a friend with the existence of this one >:) #VERY excited for tomorrow’s prompt😇 I can be normal about being loveless and alloaro and also about worldbuilding and gods😇 #subz voice was so fun to write in also. I don’t watch him much but I have a pocket subzboy who was vibing with what I sent so!!!! #cats.writes

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

Hey howdy hey! Anyone in the market for a silly little fic featuring Mapicc and Zam being little shits in their DMs while petty apartment notice drama is going on in the background? If so, do I have the fic for you!

#there are DEFINITELY typos and DEFINJTELY nonsensical sentences but dawg it was me and my notes app and YouTube going AT it #usually I make more sense in docs but today we embrace the crack ^-^ #ALSO. I HATE WRITING TEXTS IN LOWERCASE. AUTOCAPS HATES IT I HATE IT AND I COULD NOT REMOVE APOSTROPHES #THAT WAS THE LINE I REFUSED TO CROSS FOR ACCURACY #anyways. shenanigans! mapicc and bacon bitch at each other ao much and it is wonderful <3 #lifesteal #lifesteal SMP #mapicc #baconwaffles0 #princezam #cats.writes

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

@mcyt-aro-week day six! Found family! 4k of casino quartet being absolute cunts to each other. Because they are family & queerplatonic & horrible little bastard men <2

#mcyt aro week #lifesteal SMP #casino quartet #WOO YEAH BACK ON THE GRIND #the title is I think my favourite connection I’ve made in relation to the four #they’re all a different card suit! #Clown and Redd are hearts and diamonds respectively (because they’re both red & because Clown loves his 20 hearts / the s3 casino #& because diamonds are valuable are a sign of power are the best armour when the netherite bans are active) #and then Branzy and Ash are clubs and spades respectively #(Branzy being clubs is because of this whole vibes based association thing I have going on I can’t explain it just. underestimated and roun #while Ash is spades because of his whole kismeiss (that is almost certainly not how you spell it) behaviour with half the server) #cats.writes

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

@mcyt-aro-week day two: loveless! (AU is technically here too but. Loveless Sweep). Anyways! Shaking a can around ANYONE IN THE MARKET FOR LOVELESS ARO REDD AND GOD ASH??? We got businessmen we got unconventional queers Redd somehow found himself as the head of Ash’s temple and caught his favour you know how it is!

#mcyt aro week #lifesteal SMP #swagdoons #I HAD SO MUCH FUCKING FUN WITH THIS DAY DAWG. SO MUCH FUN #admittedly I had to do two takes because I didn’t realize that I would actually need to World Build but. WAAAAAAH #that said. it feels SO good to have someone respond to I love you in an atypical way. j was kicking my feet and giggling and shit #oh the sweet sweet feeling of projection ^-^ #adore you atypical gays adore you weird ass relationships adore you divinity and gods #title is from death of peace of mind by bad omens btw!!!!! it’s on my alloaro playlist and since Redd is heavily implied to be alloaro #I said fuck it . most religious coded song on that playlist be upon ye #cats.writes

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

I think PrinceZam should be put in a saw trap. Not that it’d be good for him just that it would force him to either confront the worst of his mortality and all of his fears and force him to reckon with the parts of himself that he continually tries to deny. Or die trying

#my brain put me in The Torment Nexus last night for five consecutive nightmares in a row so I’m coping by figuring out what kind of trap #would force Zam into acknowledging all the worst parts of him #(gesturing vaguely at my brain) you put ME in saw traps?!!!???? I’m gonna put ZAM in one #this is also partially inspired by holland’s ASDOM saw au because it goes crazy hard #I’m thinking that the best trap for him would be one where he has to choose between being selfish (saving himself) #or selfless (saving someone else) BUT it can’t be a simple decision. he needs to be forced to run through the cowardly and catastrophizing #thought patterns that have guided him this far (heavy s4 inspiration) with a side of severe mind games #I think for that reason the bathroom from the original saw film would work well but that is too much mind game not enough hands on death #but the reverse bear trap would also work to drive home the significant physical threat there needs to be #thinking……. thinking…….. #no drawn out conclusions yet but god . this is an AU I wojld really want to work with if I had the spoons and time #ohhhh perhaps he is a paranoid shutin after ruining the only friendship he’s ever had (reporting severe academic violations? perhaps) and #the whole pont is to force him to find a way to throw his full faith into doing what’s right (IE: grievous bodily harm / death) or choose #the coward’s way out becaude he cannot stand the consequences of his actions (death again but this time his own) #cats.txt #cats.writes

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

The thing about writing with adhd is sometimes you stare at the google doc for three minutes straight feeling your brain actively recoil before realizing you need a distraction break a palate cleanser something to do while your brain regenerates words. Anyways this is why I am on Tumblr. Instead of writing. As you do

#THINGS WERE GOING WELL #AND THEN. BRICK WALL #little scrolling a little video games and I will be back to worfs in no time #I just need to charge up again #cats.txt #cats.writes

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

I need drugs I mean fuck I mean fucking on drugs I mean 125mg of molly and perhaps some horse tranquilizers I mean I closed my eyes last night and pictured his hands Around my throat as he kissed my collarbones with so much love that it could kill a man I mean I think we fucked in a past life I mean I think I killed him but it was a mistake it was an accident I loved him more than life itself I mean he took pleasure in scooping out my guts like a jack o lantern but iloved him so it was more than enough

#gutsposting #cats.writes #<-fhis is like short form poetry. to Me

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

I love explaining my writing process to my friends. Pulling up at the plotters convention with a three hour long playlist a song I found at 3am by making a deal with the devil several pieces of pocket lint and an old penny I found on the ground. Hey guys yeah this got me 40k and counting :)

#shoutout to ‘has his own fictionalized Wikipedia pages for every single one of his characters and almost 20 years of planned scores’ Luke #who has had to deal with my nonsense and is only able to send !???????????????? in ym direction #HELL YEAH BROTHER WE THRIVING‼️‼️‼️ #you open my doc. ‘they sit and chat with Rax giving them bare minimum details about the past five months and their job’ #and I know exactly what scene this is how everyone is positioned what I want them to say #cats.writes

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

Writing sucks because on one hand I want to write stories that will reach into someone’s chest and stick with them for a long long time with so many poignant moments but then on the other hand I just wrote the line “I didn't—think before you speak: is it True? Is it Helpful? Is it Inspiring? Is it Necessary? Is it Kind? I’m gonna go die now.” and I am not willing to sacrifice it at any cost. So

#I think of aftg and go yeah. that’s the kind of story I want to write #and then I open the google doc and write absolute nonsense #duality of man. I guess #cats.writes

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

I think my legacy when it comes to writint will always end up at the seven-person-plus polycule I made in insufferable. I don’t think I can top it. I don’t think I can EXPLAIN it. Queer friend group dubs

#I wojld draw it out but it always ends up with a pentagram in it somewhere and people look at you weird when you have relationship pentagram #charts everywhere. I once tried to do an OTP sheet for tjem all and had to spend an hour adding additional slots. they are my hell <3 #wip is called insufferable for a reason! #insufferable #cats.writes

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

currently having indescribable brainrot about a short story I’m working on for a creative writing class. razael rorroh the only oc ever I’d kill and die for it (and so will everyone else in the story. whoops!)

#ethereal god-like body horror more like sometimes an autistic has to autism. and commit murder #cats.writes

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

Thinking about my guys :((((((( (Syrah and Reave)

#they are THEEEEEEE sisters ever #loud and messy and unashamed and Syrah grins like bubbly champagne and Reave #bites people but looks so elegant that nobody ever expects it #Reave will jump on someone to beat the fuck out of them while Syrah giggles and kicks the downed body they hold dramatic loud arguments in #public Syrah was there for Reave’s first tattoo Reave has a strip of gold floss braided into her hair #they’ll look at their brother who has been nothing but embarrassing and lovely towards them and make his life an absolute living hell #he’s going out in makeup and a skirt because they stole the rest of his clothes they’re tripping him in public they are such a disaster #family and I love them SO MUCH #anyways I have one half finished oneshot about them and about 1.5k total. I wojld die for tjem #cats.writes

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

I think god hates me . I wanted to write a quick one-off story. 3k max. AM NOW FOUR THOUSAND WORDS IN AND COUNTING. HAVEN’T EVEN MADE IT TO THE POINT YET

#head in hands. I think I have problems #future me is going to be glad to be able to read so much but present me is wailing in agony #I JUST WANT TO FINISH TEH IDEA BEFORE IT DIES. PLEASE #anyways I’m on tumblr so I don’t have to reckon with this #cats.writes

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

Thinking about how the simple act of phrasing can completely turn a wip around and change the energy and the tone and give away so much about the narrating character. Thinking about how both Illex and Grey are autistic but they both present it in such drastically different ways. Thinking about how Grey will promptly shut down any autistic traits in his internal while Illex will emphasize them; a stark comparison to how Grey’s internal is cold, critical, blunt and to the point while Illex’s is full of memes and snappy jokes and snarky comments. Thinking about how they are both demand avoidant but Illex is ashamed of it and constantly trying to cover it up while Grey does not bat an eye over it and leans into it. I am thinking about how both of them were told to kneel and how Illex dropped like the strings holding them up were cut while Grey raised his eyebrows and said fucking make me, milord. Their stories are so tonally different and their internals are so tonally different and yet they deal with the same issues and the same topics. Man I fucking love writing

#been bouncing through both wips tonight and just went OH #because there are so many connecting lines between the two despite the drastically different. well. everything #cats.writes #MHV #GHX #Illex #Thomas Greyson