#chris carter’s faustian deal etc etc

[carefulfears]

mulder not owning a bed is such a minor character detail that’s encompassing of practically the entirety of who he is, which is so crazy honestly

#chris carter’s faustian deal etc etc #he does not ever stop he does not ever rest he does not ever sleep #he does not allow himself a moment’s comfort or affection or softness #and the thing is that you don’t even know he doesn’t have a bed at first #you just kind of notice that you never see him sleep #unless it’s on the couch in his clothes with the tv on #but then they kind of poke fun at it #like van blundt’s ‘where do i SLEEP?’ in his apartment #and the first ever peek into his bedroom in s6 #that he does have one #it’s just stacked floor to ceiling with boxes #and it's so strange and unusual that it stands out in a way that makes you HAVE to clock these things about him #that he usually can try to hide in a well placed joke or reassuring smile #behind a shut door when there are lamps and blankets and framed artwork in the main room #he’s so outwardly kind and gentle that you don’t see it at first #the extent of how self-punishing and driven mad with guilt he is #until the show opens a door and almost points and laughs