#crying my eyes out to “no more birthdays” associating the song with trying to relive a childhood that isn't mine (childhood trauuuumaaaaaa)

[captain-crowfish]

They say to never trust how you feel about your life after 9PM but it's always before 9PM somewhere. Anyway I think I might be a therian

#don't take this post 100% seriously I've been sick and #crying my eyes out to “no more birthdays” associating the song with trying to relive a childhood that isn't mine (childhood trauuuumaaaaaa) #that's a big problem I have #deep down I always think someday I'm gonna wake up and I will have been born a few years earlier- #so I can be an “appropriate” age to experience all my favorite media as it releases and interact accordingly #i always think- if that were the case I could have avoided my traumatic years and grown up much happier #don't get me wrong- I'm happy right now- you'd be hard pressed to find me on a day I'm not #but there's some existentialism that comes with wanting to magically wake up a different age- in the past- in a different life #I want to have lived any life but mine #and I just keep waiting for it to feel better again #it never does #crowfish crap #that therian part is definitely coinciding with autism and gender non conformity #when I picture myself I immediately picture my fursona- not a human who (at the moment) appears feminine #i hardly know anything about the subculture itself however #blathering #its true btw don't trust how you feel about your life at night time