#cuz theyre baller as hell and we dont talk about all our struggles out in open a lot and trust is a danger when youve grown about a decade

[friedbreadwombat]

Wondering how my legal parents are still alive like

#theyre illegal #they have committed various crimes #including being terrible to be around in general as well #murder they committed attempted murder but I needa look into this a bit more to see whats up and what be do #we're genuinely fine here though we're safe #theyre deathly scared of the law or something coming after them and held in a situation where it is literally only a matter of time #and Im watching with popcorn and making sure nobody's doing fuckshiet #my sibble be fierce too #we're just trying to live in the world like everybody else pretty much #but unfortunately it looks like people have beef with that. They haven't said anything about why though. #We're listening to absolute silence #sibble if youre watching this Im so sorry. It's genuinely hard for me to speak about many things. Its a hefty achievement to be here #talking about things for that reason too. I'm so sorry I didn't tell you about this or that you had to find it out if its I mean it is #pretty heavy news #if you want to you could try come talk to me about it. Im always there. or Im gonna try to be. #ive said a lot of other things on this blog mentioning this hellfam too so if theyve found me here before they have probably seen it all #and I only wish i could tell em better than this #cuz theyre baller as hell and we dont talk about all our struggles out in open a lot and trust is a danger when youve grown about a decade #or more in this hell of a family. #its not a family. In fact they caught onto this faster than I did. #and Id only regret not being able to be there for them when they may have needed me most. Or even much at all. #because how do you do that to somebody you love. I know lots of things can happen. But how could I do that. Why'd I feel good or nothing #about hurting someone I love. #I may not have done the things this hellfam's worst peoples have done but I'd just still wanna make sure everyone who's even an inch sane #to be ok. #except Im pretty sure now trauma is not a good guideline or drawing point for a good sound solution that really wouldnt hurt somebody. #So I am sorry for that.