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#done. hopefully. then its back to 11hr days until Monday
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#last night i dreamed that i was trapped in my same patterns as i am while awake but the building i work in was bigger
#and i was so dizzy and disoriented that i kept stumbling from room to room. up and down stairs. running into people who would stare at me
#in confusion until one grabbed me in the way u do when someone is being concerning and incoherent and he made me sit in an auditorium
#with a doctor who already knew my name. but then i was back in my messy apartment staring down at a lizard id let die because id forgotten
#to feed it. part of my brain was in contact with my mum and she said i should come home so i did. i appeared there but i seemed somewhat
#transparent. liked id been there a long time so no one noticed my being there was out of place. they were there but doing other things
#i wandered into a room where some ppl i knew from hs were performing surgery. i went to wash my hands and the soap came out as blood
#my sister tolerated my presence. which is out of character. she seemed to sense something was wrong. then i walked back into my current
#apartment halfway across the country. caught a glimpse of myself in the bathroom mirror and became transcendently angry
#uneasy dreams. but at least i didnt have to get up at 6. i mean i still only got like 7hrs sleep at most but better than 6 i guess
#its probably bc i spent so much time hysterically crying and staring off into space yesterday. by the end of the day i felt so awful i
#wondered if i might b getting sick. dizzy in that way thats not quite dizzy
#but today should b pretty laid back. still doing things but probably ill hace time to get some non work bullshit
#done. hopefully. then its back to 11hr days until Monday
#then the experiment is over and i havr to deal with the consequences. and finish my other destructive project
#which has at least 11 days left
#well see what happens π«
#unrelated
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