#edit: this feels terrible i was sobbing so hard earlier i exhausted myself idk man i just feel so shitty tonight

[badcountryofficial]

I hate you so much it's unreal

#give. me. #anyway i rlly should comm art of him #if for no other rzn than just i keep slipping #and i need art of him #and i cant make it #tonight it's gone from like 'i'd be better off dead (cos there wouldnt be this pain and monotony)' #to 'i'd be better off dead (because i dont help the world and maybe i even harm it)' #like idk man. my mind has split tonight im having An Episode (lite) #lots of thoughts. none of em good. #i need the universe to give me a sign #edit: this feels terrible i was sobbing so hard earlier i exhausted myself idk man i just feel so shitty tonight #i hate? this life? #negative #edit 2: like *laughs nervously* why am i alive again???? #don't answer that. dnnfjjgkkgkfjdjf