#energetic. idk maybe im just exhausted and brain is pumping me with stress hormones so i csnt stop but i also csnt feel it

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#feelin weird. feelin real weird. in a bad way? no i guess not but more like im a haha wtf is happening here? #like i should maybe track my mood just so i can be like wtf is this? more bc i think its interesting #bc like i mean im spending ~11hrs in the lab and the stress has been real high and ive not been sleeping well #but like currently? i feel like i wanna run a mile. like i wanna run around in circles and scream and laugh until i cry #too much energy. too much energy. but y? where is it coming from? its weird #its like the edge of a headache. the cusp of turning. it doesn't quite feel bad yet but like i woke up at 4 #and was insane until 6 when i had to get up and then i was in the lab all day until 6.30 #and immediately i went for a run like empty stomach. i need to run now. and i still feel like that. like i need to run and run and run #but like y am i not exhausted? im not even tired? im vibrating #i watched the new successi0n episode twice and im losing my mind abt it #so its weird and i dont understand. but its not bad. it feels out of control like it feels fucked up but im not being like irradic #like if i was standing beside someone i dont think theyd notice. except maybe my sister bc i think if i talked id be noticeable #energetic. idk maybe im just exhausted and brain is pumping me with stress hormones so i csnt stop but i also csnt feel it #but i suspect its something to do with estrogen and progesterone levels changing which isnt great bc ive got a cycle that borders being #concerningly short but like idk rn its fun. im sure itll break and ill split apart but rn everything feels hilarious #its also weird bc im always like: y do i have so much energy after i dont sleep? is not sleeping thr answer. and today i was like hm #maybe i cant sleep bc i have too much energy. hm. idk its not bad. it doesn't feel bad #it just feels interesting and notable so im noting it. weird stuff. hopefully it pulls me thru tomorrow #bc my back fucking hurts lmao and its monday so ppl r back in the lab as i stand around for 11 hours #unrelated