#enoughhhhh like stoppp ittttt 😂 please. ☹️

[sanchoyo]

🧍🏻 girl help the blood tests came back and I do possibly have pre-hypothyroidism. They want me to come back in 3 months to do another panel just in case bc smth was apparently way way too high 😭 wtf !!

#I don’t know what they’ll do if it’s confirmed I mean. I mean they confirmed my levels are high but maybe it’s a fluke 😭 PLSS if that’s #actually fr a reason or contributing factor to my mental stuff I will lose it I don’t want another diagnosis I have enough shit wrong!!! #enoughhhhh like stoppp ittttt 😂 please. ☹️ #I am also going to …book an appointment w a disability lawyer #I once again quit a job after 2 days 😔 #but I’m alive! I survived a level 10 brain crisis . I can’t keep getting jobs and then having huge horrible week long meltdowns over them #it’s disability or bust!!!! if the lawyer tells me it’s not realistic and she doesn’t think I’ll get it idk 😭 #but like. I’m not able to work rn. I can’t keep lying and downplaying it and then spending weeks recovering after meltdowns #it’s not sustainable!!!! it cannot continue!!!! #literally nervously admitted to my sister how bad it actually is and saying it out loud was so hard and embarrassing but… #I promised the crisis hotline lady I’d get help and tell my support system that I need help. I will not let her down 🫡 I will get help #if I have to drag myself. which I will . #lol…(pained) I rly hope the lawyer takes me seriously 😐 #medical talk #sanchoyorambles #actually thyroid issues run in the family my grandma has thyroid issues!!! I’ve gone w her to a specialist that’s like 3 hours away!!! #maybe I shouldn’t be surprised but I genuinely am I am like wtf!! bro !! #I mean tbf I’ve had anxiety forever like even as a very small child so I don’t think that’s the ONLY reason but if it’s contributing…🔫 #I don’t even kno how they’d treat that I will look it up I guess 🧍🏻