#esp as a scout bc ... so much of it gets held back. just not enough for marco to not see it :pray:

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cant remember bringing this up for a while so honestly i'll never be over the reiiteration that jean himself has a bleeding heart. he is going to be both blunt and honest with whoever hes speaking to, but in a way that he hopes will come to help them understand the situation but also does it so whoever he's speaking with actually understands the full situation and what that may entail despite the gruesome outcome.

#out of. #i know so many people respect erwins RTS speech bc its so important but #his honesty to the corps completely parallels what 15 year old jean was saying to the scouts in trost arc and that is. IMPORTANT TO ME #rusty honesty is the most lore accurate name for his theme bc jean is. at his very core. AWFUL at this when he starts off #esp as a scout bc ... so much of it gets held back. just not enough for marco to not see it :pray: #his first proper scout interaction with eren is something i always write as a big regret for him but i also think its good to say he was a #fifteen year old who was suddenly becoming his own and a lot of peoples therapists. #he gets so much better with all this. he GROWS #i was talking abt this with angel a second ago but it's just part of the reiner and jean parallel that makes me enjoy writing them the most #reiner originally was this massive older brother figure role following all he had learnt from marcel. but peoples trust in him snapped so #easily when the reveal took place and he then spent the rest of the series trying to gain it back #( the only character who really seemed to forgive him the most being jean ) #whereas jean was the character everyone loved to be mad at / tease / not get too close to #into becoming someone the majority of the scouts trusted the most #one day i will write my meta explaining all these diff characters jean mirrors but ... i shall leave you with this for now