#even if logically i dont believe in it whenever a string of bad events happen i ask myself what i did to warrant this

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clouds by alex g great song to almost tear up to

#date i had on sat cancelled bc she had too much work to do which me too but i was rly looking forward to catching up w her #that plus all the other stuff that has been happening #my friends' house is almost empty everyone is going home #the weather is playing along too #two of my friends are in thailand i miss both of them dearly #ive found myself subconsciously believing in some form of karma over the past few months #even if logically i dont believe in it whenever a string of bad events happen i ask myself what i did to warrant this #i think right now my crime is a lack of self discipline #making false promises to myself and not following through at detriment to my own future #i know this line of thinking isnt helpful but maybe i need it because otherwise its just. that im very unlucky #or that im meant to not be loved or things will just keep going wrong and id really like thst to not be true #the sun is shining a little bit through the clouds #maybe thats a good sign