#every drawing of sharena is a love letter and a wish and a gift. that's what she is to me.

[moe-broey]

I think every transmasc should have a girl blorbo

Delve deep into her writing/character and expand on it and extrapolate ESP if the source material Does Not do her justice or doesn't give her the things she deserves. Find your pain in her pain and find her pain in yours and give her the things you will never have. Whether it was taken, starcrossed, or never meant for you. It could be for her. It could be.

Bestow upon her a gift, what remains of a life never lived. Leftover love of things that never fit right, never suited you, never were meant for you. Things you learned to love anyway, a love both real and manufactured out of necessity and survival.

And bestow upon her another gift, of love that has nowhere to go, of doors you've had to lock shut, doors you know go nowhere for you. Give her the key. Take up your pencil. Draw her in an adorable outfit. Draw her surrounded by loved ones, who love her so dearly back. Every drawing, a wish. That she can have a kinder life than mine. That I could give that to her. A parting gift, from me to someone who I can no longer host, that can now live on peacefully within her and lead an even better life than it ever could have within me. It was in the wrong house I had to rehome it.

Something adjacent to Gandalf Big Naturals ect ect

#fun fact! yesterday i had to explain gandalf big naturals to my therapist. #i feel like. there is so much that can be said here. #it's not necessarily about seeing yourself in a female character bc i literally never have. #i could have a few things in common i could acknowledge like oh sakura from ccs has brown hair like mine #and she's in the same grade as me (when i started reading ccs as a kid). but that's where it began and ended. #the first character i EVER saw myself in was nonbinary. and after that i actually started seeing myself #in exclusively male characters. like. it gave me permission too. #but this isn't really about that it's about like. recogizing common ground (keeps you normal about women) #(bc DEAR GOD. w how close i am w my sisters w my prev life experience you think i would be. however #being transmasc can and WILL give you shrimp color insecurities and insane tendencies.) #but it's also about like. an entire life that has nowhere to go. both in the past and in the present actually. #like it's so much more than just dresses i still own and think are cute and pretty and don't have the heart to get rid of #what i'm trying to capture here is it's more than just what you had to leave behind that no longer suits you. #it's everything in the wake of living as yourself and being dead in the eyes of people who say they still love you. #a ghost that haunts itself by living. #and it's about things that just have never been and never will be. the grief of which will consume you forever #every drawing of sharena is a love letter and a wish and a gift. that's what she is to me.