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#for a while labelling myself as arospec ace kinda calmed that down but. i don't know
catkin-morgs-kookaburralover
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questioning sexuality is so exhausting
#(edit: sorry for the rant in the tags and i just. i want someone to talk to me)
#i keep on doing it for no apparent reason
#someone was talking about lust yesterday and i realised today that.
#even tho id thought i don't experience it. i possibly do. but exclusively towards women.
#i hate it here!
#for a multitude of reasons i will never have a relationship with a woman but! i may be incapable of having a relationship with a man!
#at some point in the last few months i have abruptly pivoted from definitely wanting marriage and kids to being ambivalent on marriage
#and not wanting kids. that's such an outlier in my life that it might just be a mental health thing tho idk
#but at the same time i. want to be loved.
#i don't know what i want anymore and im tired of questioning myself
#i definitely overthink it but idk how to stop it
#and i hate hate hate how the moral obsessions have bee lately
#this isn't entirely related but it kind of is
#like Am i a terrible morally bankrupt person for having certain thoughts or is it just religious ocd go brrrr?? am i overthinking it?
#i don't know. i don't know!
#for a while labelling myself as arospec ace kinda calmed that down but. i don't know
#i do't want to be attracted to women. i don't want to have to look away so often. i don't want any of that.
#but i don't know how to stop it.
#i don't even know if i'm attracted to men at all.
#this is a cry for help and encouragement and prayers no matter what your views on these matters are
#queer stuff tag
#i nearly fessed up to my friend yesterday about same sex attraction and i might've except that it would have probably outed me as
#the person who anonymously sent in a question several months ago about the side b movement to a church thing
#ive only told one person at church about any of that sort of stuff and it was very vaguely worded
#also see: this friend is the mother of the boy i?? i don't even know how i feel about him
#i increasingly think it wasn't romantic at all. but i don't know
#i would love any encouragement you got. anything at all.
#i don't know how much this stuff is affected by the fact that i consider myself unloveable and think it highly unlikely any boy will ever
#care for me
#now im rambling. sorry
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