#for the record i was really into phan and ryden and then larry

[dashiellqvverty]

calling myself a former rpf fan is so misleading bc “fiction” had nothing to do with it. even when i did read fic i was never even all that into it and i didn’t really get much out of it it was ALL about reading those primers and manifestos and analyzing lyrics and watching videos/interviews/etc

#and i can say yeah i don’t read rpf anymore. which is true. #but that doesn’t mean i don’t still wholeheartedly believe that a lot of this stuff Happened <3 #for the record i was really into phan and ryden and then larry #and to a lesser extent petekey i liked reading all the lore but i didn’t Post as often abt them or engage w as much content i guess #i was never as deep into mcr at the time idk why it did take me longer to get into them overall #anyway while i am largely not comfortable reading rpf anymore it’s also partly to do with like #i think as a category of fic it’s very limited and i just never enjoyed it #bc it can never be ‘in character’ bc they. aren’t characters. #and we don’t know them so there is no right or wrong way to write anyone so it’s all about who we imagine them to be #and it becomes very much like projecting fan images into their personal lives #fanfic engages with the original text but what happens when there is no text to engage with. well it’s boring. #you can’t explore characters when the characters are real people with real lives #all this to say i have a fondness for throam BECAUSE it is so far removed and such an original universe #(and open about making all the side characters not based on who the band members they used were really like) #that i just enjoy it as a story. and i think it draws on real life details in interesting ways while ultimately creating original characters #it’s not like a literary masterpiece but i do enjoy it and think about revisiting it often. it’s been years i wonder if i’d #like it this much now. #anyway it is 4:30 in the morning and for some reason i can’t stop rambling about this #r.txt