#given weird looks going into the gender neutral bathroom and when wearing my fem halloween costume

[butchmartyr]

genuinely though its kind of insane the transmisogyny and fear trans women just have to live with and how much of it is waved away as exaggeration or paranoia. all i can think of is that bit from infect your friends and loved ones, “THE WHOLE WORLD MONITORS AND MOCKS MY EVERY WAKING MOMENT”, literally it is the strongest part of the entire book just because of how well that describes this shit

#while i was in college on the so called lgbt floor i was basted in it #given weird looks going into the gender neutral bathroom and when wearing my fem halloween costume #told directly when they say nonbinary that they didnt intend people like me #and now that im graduated and moved its just different shit #im pressured to out myself by ‘liberal inclusive’ companies and ghosted after interviews #theres small local terf radio broadcast near me #tme nb lesbians joke in front of me about getting in fights with them while they shit-stir at pride and other events #and i have to laugh along when they 'they dont even know im trans too!' as if theyre playing duck duck goose. meanwhile im wanted dead #and its like nobody else can see the pattern. like everybody sees bits of ugly gray and blue but nobody sees the rotting mold as it is #the state of things is miserable! so we cant stop until young trans girls can experience respect before the age of like 17 or later #sasha seethes