#going into quaran tine may have been the only reason I survived this long and the pseudo gap year may have been the mental health break

[brainrot-yumm]

yesterday I went into my art class for the last time vowing to ensure I leave with a positive impression on my students and teacher

and I ended up saying multiple things that were not meant to be mean, but were so extremely tone-deaf that every single one WAS taken as mean/feisty/accusatory, and then I apologized a whole bunch after

I told my teacher “have a nice life! :D” right before leaving, because literally. I won’t be seeing him again unless I bump into him at a store half an hour away from the school. And I was teased relentlessly for being so blunt and crude. 

Again I think my own struggle is funny and I was able to play off all of them with relative ease (& being super dramatic helps), so no one’s feelings were horribly hurt. but wow. I am NOT good at talking to people anymore

at least I worked on the flat affect thing and gave a better masking performance, even if what I said wasn’t all that good lol

#going into quaran tine may have been the only reason I survived this long and the pseudo gap year may have been the mental health break #I DESPERATELY needed #but wow my social skills have suffered horribly as a result #The person I liked the most in my class was like 'wow you keep urself on ur toes. You're both the protagonist and the antagonist of your lif #and I consider that a great compliment #if she ever reads this the thing I wanted to say in class was 'yeah Im the monster and the monsterfucker in my life lol'