#happens to be my first time drawing a character is good. why would i wsnt to shatter my own illusion

[lovphobic]

oh so its just radioactive waves from a worse time in my life

#literally i cannot even begin to comprehend showing anyone even the friends i trust most the small thing i drew #bc theres just such a thorny.. Shame #over nothing! literslly over fucking nothing. nobody was mean to me ab my art in the past so its not that! #but somewhere between then and now i internalised the fact that there is shame in what i do with regards to art+favorite characters #and even outside of that its like. i think the little thing is kinda okay rn. and i feel like if i show anyone ill instantly view it as bad #which i dont want to do! i think the first thing ive drawn in THREE YEARS is good. i think the first thing ive drawn in three years that #happens to be my first time drawing a character is good. why would i wsnt to shatter my own illusion #and like i Do :( want to show my friends... but. last 2 tags. #idk its just very weird to have lamented ab this last night and then see someone ive never met mirroring my Exact Situation #maybe voltron is the problem..