#haven't furnished my room beyond bed & desk & tons of boxes lying around

[herawell]

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#i washed my hair at midnight so now i have to stay up till 2am for it to dry #bc my roommate is sleeping so i can't use the blow dryer #moving out and being $$ indepndent ain't all it's cracked up to be #i do my early morning meetings in my bed while still underneath the blanket #then brush teeth have breakfast and go in at ~10am #come back by 3 or 4pm #and then it's just scrolling on my phone #till 2am #still haven't found a local doctor yet #barely done any cooking #haven't furnished my room beyond bed & desk & tons of boxes lying around #i keep feeling outpaced by ppl #by my male coworker whom i'm partnered with in everything so comparison is always inevitable #by my roommate who's barely 20 and still a college intern #by my oldest younger sib (same age) who has grown into themselves in the last year #and is doing things completely on their own in a way i never did at their age #and my mom has openly said that said sibling is better than me #keep trying to take one more step in the hope that it'll. idk. #give me serotonin #cure my executive dysfunction #break my rut #negativity cw