#he doesn’t even try to repress it. he’s wholly himself and wholly Batman. it’s a lot of Jesus metaphor happening here.

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i ‘ m unironically saying that bruce saved my life and i can ‘ t even count how many times he did when I was just a kid.

#[and no I don’t mean that Batman saved my life. do not get this twisted. bruce did. #Bruce’s love Bruce’s kindness Bruce’s brokenness Bruce’s hate but Bruce’s love god his love. #yeah the mask is him but the percentages are there. bruce is always differing percentages of both. because bruce is that shining heart. #good characterization? Alfred saying ‘you’re a Wayne’. in the end yes his name is all of it but. it’s his humanity. his connections. #his philanthropy. bruce held my hand in my stairwell as my parents hurled pots and pans at one another. bruce sat with me at the window when #my father didn’t show up time and time again. bruce sat in quiet but pleasant silence beside me while I was locked in my college basement #and couldn’t get through to the bookstore while I was freaking out. bruce just took me out of my apathy. I’m pretty sure he did it with #nothing but hope and a bright red flare. i get it now too why. battinson’s lack of playboy makes him… relatable. #real. tangible. he’s the person I’ve been and the person I’m still struggling to work on. he’s the person who’s goodness is buried deep but #he doesn’t even try to repress it. he’s wholly himself and wholly Batman. it’s a lot of Jesus metaphor happening here. #i left that theater and got back in my car with my best friend. and for the first time in my life he looked the way I used to imagine. #i cry a lot about Bruce and I also spent my infancy wanting to be rescued by Batman. but mostly wanting to just.. know Bruce. #….eeyore was also my favorite character because ‘he was sad and I wanted to give him a hug’. #fuck i foreshadowed myself.] #child abuse / #abuse mention / #[okay okay I’m going to bed now I’m just very very feeling about how happy this has made me. #getting to write him is both a joy and an honor.]