#he’s not LYING… he just… refuses to go further fjdjjf

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i mean legit the best example i can give of dan’s purposeful censorship of his life was in that last post tbh

his reality: horrific absolute monster deadbeat dad who made him and his family’s life a living hell

what he says: my dad was mean to my mom :(

#he’s not LYING… he just… refuses to go further fjdjjf #like if his siblings want to vent to him abt their dad??? go ahead #but dan is a Steel Fortress ugh #i could talk abt him for hours i’m sorry pff #it wasn’t that he was expected to be a protector or his mother or younger siblings assigned him that role - he’s just… like that #he decided very early on that he could Handle It - no matter what It was #because as long as someone could handle it they could all be okay #it wasn’t that he was expected to step between his mother and his father he just… did #and earlier in the same day he and his dad could have gone out hunting and sat in odd comfortable but not at all friendly or loving silence #but god… he’s been so repressed for so long #he only knows how to be there for others - i don’t think (even for as insightful and confident in himself #because of his years of introspection that he has) that i can properly even put into words #how much this man has mistaken having a restricted section in his library for healing and Moving On #he still has trouble hanging out with his siblings - he still feels guilt - he still feels like he’s been stuck in some strange limbo #of life. he’s very lucky to be where he is and doing what he loves #but some mornings he wakes up and he’s still that fourteen year old boy #whose face aches and ribs hurt and when he comes to… he doesn’t feel any ownership of the space he occupies #he’s just… there. #daniel is the boy who practices a few smiles as he pushes himself to sit in bed because he can hear his baby siblings running down #the hall to let him know breakfast is ready - and he told them yesterday that the broken nose was nothing and the black eye was fine #and giving them that relief will always come before the sick feeling in his stomach and the fear coiling around his neck #i could wax poetic abt this sumbitch for hours omg pls bless you if you read this AT ALL idk if anything i say abt daniel makes sense fjfhf #child abuse tw // #military yt man marries local selvadoradan beauty whose twenty years younger than him - does their eldest son have some #Serious Generational Trauma?? vote now on your phones!!! 📞 #dan takin a hit for everyone in the house at one point or another: light work no reaction #dan learning there’s cucumbers in his food: 😰😭😢🤕