#here i am in a pre-med clown hat with a bigass FOOD SCIENCE sticker slapped across the front

[pabotofus]

lord how on earth did i GET here (derogatory)

#HOW AM I A STEM MAJOR my whole thing used to be 'yeah im not bad at stem i consider myself pretty good at it but i dont Enjoy it' and then #here i am in a pre-med clown hat with a bigass FOOD SCIENCE sticker slapped across the front #emma rambles #not fandom related #just found out i need 6 intro bio credits but the two bio courses i picked from the list they gave me only count for 5 total and #i dont wanna take another one but i'm probably going to have to suck it up and do it which would be annoying but i'd be okay with it except #NONE OF THEM FIT IN MY SCHEDULE #I ALREADY DON'T REALLY WANT TO DO IT BUT NOW I CAN'T DO IT BUT I ALSO HAVE TO??????? like deadass my likeliest option rn is going to be #taking an intro bio course in my senior year. yeah. u heard me right! xoxo #my soph spring schedule will have me taking FIVE COURSES BACK TO BACK on fridays with NO lunch break and before you ask they are ALL. #required courses which means i Have to take those and most of them only have one timeslot #so this is my only option. and guess what~ they're ALL STEM COURSES #i want to take a language course while im here SOOOO bad but they meet SEVEN TIMES A WEEK and undergrads don't get the option of auditing #which is a whole can of worms we're not gonna open bc im so mad about it. like realistically speaking soph fall is the only time i can take #a language course with that amount of time commitment but i'd literally be having 4 classes back to back on MWF and like yeah its doable but #id be completely miserable. my course load would be through the ROOF the fucking WAZOO out the door #not to mention that recently i was googling something and i found schools that literally offer food science and culinary arts as #a dual degree (????!?!?!?!?!!!!!?) which is like so cool and now i kind of regret not finding out during college apps except also like #this is the evil coming out but i kind of enjoy being an Ivy League student yknow what i mean. This Is Why You Don't Tie Your Self Worth To #Your Academic Status you utter fool (me. i am the fool) like what did you think was going to happen. and i guess i kind of like it here but #who says i wont like it better there but also what if i like it WORSE there but also it'll save me time and money to be able to get both #degrees at once. since i Do want to get culinary arts education. but also if i leave here to go to some other randomass school im going to #feel like i failed somehow but also if i stayed wouldn't it be even more stupid because im staying for the brand name and not the content. #which isn't even necessarily true i do think having a [redacted] fdsci degree offers me a lot that will be useful that i wont necessarily be #able to get other places (not sure why i censored it like there are many ivy leagues that offer fdsci. if you wanted to find out you #definitely could). and at the end of it all this is totally a non-issue since im ok w staying here and i think i'll end up just fine but #'what if' scenarios are my Utter kryptonite and i wish i never found out about this in the first place. #but yea my point is this fackin major and this fackin curriculum is SO TIME CONSUMING AND I DONT HAVE THE TIME TO DO THE THINGS I WANT GOD #DAMN IT. WHATS THE POINT OF ALL THESE ELECTIVE SLOTS IF NO ELECTIVES ACTUALLY FIT IN THEM BECAUSE YOU'RE MAKING ME TAKE TWO LONGASS LABS #EVERY SEMESTER!!!!!! screaming and kicking and crying and cursing right now i wish college did not have so many restrictions