#hhhfhsgfjs i'm so sentimental rn :<< i miss a lot of things so much

[noxtivagus]

i'm fine phew

#🌙.vents #calmed down thankfully #still hurts but like #hope yk? tomorrow #promises for the future #flying above that flowery path. #hope that i'll meet you irl someday to say thank you personally #hdskfbsk it's a bit of a burden to remember n think n feel so much but #i'm. glad to be that kind of person to remember what others havr done #for me n then #i just. rlly hold it dear to me yk. w all my friends i rmb those promises i rmb the conversations #i really love each of the little things i rmb about each of them :c n i rlly want to #convey it well enough so they'll know. they'll see n understand. #hhhfhsgfjs i'm so sentimental rn :<< i miss a lot of things so much #wish i cld just relive some memories again #i. want to know so badly #what i mean to others. what they think of me n what they remember of me #one of the most beautiful n intimate yk abt being human is #the way we connect n relate w others. it adds so much meaning to life too #maybe its unpredictability scares me in such a way that i find myself in awe of it. intimidated. #sometimes i think myself to be content with just watching from the sides but then i remember the times i've been happy at your side #like just. beside all the ppl in my life. being a part of it just seems so unreal at times. #i shld sleep soon tho i'm rambling sm 😭 i'm rlly glad i managed to calm down at least bcs #really wldn't be nice to go to sleep w a heavy heart yk. so i made it through another day n #i'll make it through so much more. & it will be enough for me each time. enough for me to accept the reality of life #so long as i'm me. so long as i stay true to that.. i can live freely.