#how I love being overcome with unspecified indescribable emotion so intense it makes me feel physically sick. wish I could sleep tho :^

[toastsnaffler]

I do literally everything my phone is off for hours before bed + I'm active and eating well during the day I'm reading + meditating to wind down + going to bed at a sensible time + my room is comfortable and dark and the right temperature and literally everything else I know every fucking trick in the book im doing them all I promise and i still cant fucking sleep. what does it want.

#how I love being overcome with unspecified indescribable emotion so intense it makes me feel physically sick. wish I could sleep tho :^/ #it would be nice if the emotions I experienced felt normal sized enough to contain in my body instead of terrifyingly overwhelmingly huge #this is just so frustrating I was doing so well today I was so tired and taking so much care and for what. to have a 1am breakdown #i just want to sleep properly I want to wake up and feel rested and better for it but now I'm just going to feel exhausted again wahey #it takes my dad 30 seconds to fall asleep. he complained to me the other day that it took him 15 mins like ARE U FUCKING KIDDING ME!!!!! #how do i get on that shit im fucking desperate i cant cope with this #if u r reading this do NOT send me unsolicited advice I will barehandedly rip each of ur ribs out #when will it be quiet in my head please please please please please #man i wish i had someone here rn i just want to cry into someones shirt abt it im so tired i dont want to be alone anymore #this is so incoherent whatever who fucking cares man i promise im trying to do it all right please just want this shit to be ok #.vent