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luminousfinn · 7 years

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@bodhirookandor I just saw you reblogged my post with that fic idea for a Bodhi/Cassian undercover mission gone wrong fic

#so i can cry or whatever#suicide cw#death cw#bassian#but like listen Cassian would try everything in his power to die#he would hold out for the first interrogation (maybe even the second and third)#but he knows#he /knows/ that he won't be able to last forever#so he tries everything in his power to kill himself#they end up having to restrain him but Cassian kicks at them#bites them#until one of them decides that he's too dangerous or whatever#idk#but he's doing everything in his power to die#and Bodhi would be racing against time because he knows what Cassian's going to do#and he's trying to find him#he tries to get the resistance to help but they can't#maybe they're in a a place where there is no extraction/they have to extract themselves#and Bodhi's on his own#maybe he finds Cassian#or maybe he doesn't#if he does#would it be before or after cassian is forced to spill secrets for the Empire#(assuming they restrain him so much he can't move)#or would he find him dead?#what if he didn't find him at all#and years go by where Bodhi is just searching because he hasn't given up#won't ever give up#because cassian deserves better dammit and bodhi won't ever give up on him#and holy shit im crying and you haven't even written the damn thing yet

and man your tags killed me. (Because I have to share the pain.)

It’s unlikely I’ll ever write it, I have way too many series and long fics going already, but I had some more thoughts. (Erm, this got longer than expected.=

So the two of them have acquired some information vital to the Rebellion, but their cover have been blown and the have to escape cross country on foot to get to the capital where they’ve left their ship.

Half way there they’re ambushed by an Imperial patrol. They split up while running one step ahead of the patrol, each carrying a copy of the data, to maximize the chance of the information gets to the Alliance.

After Bodhi takes off, Cassian makes a choice. He destroys his set of the data and allows himself to be captured planning on tricking the Imperials into thinking he was the only rebel agent and banking on his suicide back up. He knows that it’ll break Bodhi’s heart if he dies, even more so if he dies this way, but to him the mission, the need of the Alliance, will always come first.

Well Bodhi isn’t quite as far off as Cassian had thought he was and sees that Cassian is captured and knows that he won’t see Cassian alive again. But there’s no chance to save him and with a broken heart he continues to the capital.

When he finally gets there though there’s new all over the place that the Empire not only captured an Alliance agent, but when he tried to kill himself they stopped it, that this will lead into major breakthrough in the fight against the terrorist organization that calls themselves the Alliance. (You know the usual bs propaganda)

Bodhi is both overjoyed at the news - Cassian is still alive! - but also terrified. He knows how much Cassian knows about the Alliance, how much damage it could do to them and that the Empire will stop at nothing to get it out of him. He has to get Cassian out and it has to happen before he’s transported off planet for interrogation. (Btw Kay is there too, he’s the one who’s picked up much of the information about Cassian’s capture and him surviving his suicide attempt.)

In the mean time Cassian is getting increasingly desperate in his captivity. They’re watching him like hawk bats as he’s already tried to kill himself once and nearly succeeded. He first tries going without water, but that’s discovered and the guards make sure he consumes enough water and food that he won’t die.

After that, he gets aggressive. He attacks his captors every chance he gets - he¨s kept in isolation, so no chance of l picking a fight with another prisoner - hoping that when subduing him one of them will land a blow that kills him. But all of it to no avail.

On the outside Bodhi and Kay are scoping out the Imperial compound, trying to find a weakness, an attack vector. Bodhi manages to come up with a plan that might work, only problem is that he needs at least one, preferably two, more sets of hands to pull it off.

He knows he can’t ask Draven. The man won’t expend the resources needed to free an agent from Imperial custody and is more likely to declare Cassian a security risk and have him assassinated in his cell.

[From here my ideas get a bit more sketchy, I haven’t really thought much further so I’m making most of this up as I type. Bear with me.]

Rough outline is that Bodhi runs into Chirrut and Baze.

The two Guardians left the Rebellion soon after Sacrif for reasons I haven’t really settled on, but they did, and the two of them agree to help Bodhi and Kay rescue Cassian.

Queue, the rescue which, while they are successful, they only escape by the skin of their teeth.

Once they’re safely away and Cassian have been patched up, Chirrut and Baze leaves him and Bodhi alone to talk. All Cassian says is, “I’m sorry”.

And he is. He’s sorry that he broke Bodhi’s heart, that he’s caused him so much stress and pain. But he doesn’t apologize, because he can’t. Can’t because he knows, they both know, that given the same situation he’d do it all over again.

Bodhi thought he’d be relieved when Cassian was safely away, but seeing him sitting there on the bandaged and unapologetic, all he can feel is anger. And rather than say something he’ll regret he just turns around and walks out.

After this follows two conversations.

The first is between Cassian and Chirrut. It’s about being committed to something greater than yourself and what that can do to a relationship.

Cassian tells Chirrut that he can’t ask Bodhi to always put himself after the mission in a relationship, that that isn’t fair.to him. Chirrut tells him that that isn’t his choice to make, it’s Bodhi’s. And that whatever Bodhi decides Cassian should respect that, but that if Bodhi decides to stay, then he’s doing so not out of duty, but out of love for the man Cassian is. Commitments and all, and to always remember that. Though Cassian may end up paying a greater price if Bodhi do decide to stay than if he packs up and leaves.

The second is between Bodhi and Baze. This one about loving someone who’s committed to something else and how you deal with that. That it has nothing to do with them not loving you, or not wanting to prioritize you, but in their hearts they heart something and that trying to ignore that would break them, make them less than they could be.

Bodhi tells Baze that he doesn’t want Cassian to compromise himself, to lose that intergal part of who he is, but that he himself isn’t sure if he can live like that even if Baze can. Baze replies that only Bodhi can ever answer that question, bbut no matter what both he and Cassian will pay a price.

Bodhi asks him if there's anything that Baze regrets. “Yes,” Baze says. “That I left him for five years. That is time we’ll never get back.”

That night, while Baze and Chirrut are sound asleep and Kay powered down as well, Bodhi slips into Cassian’s room. He hovers just inside the door until Cassian, who was only dozing and heard him, turns over on the bed to face him.

“Can I sleep here?” Bodhi asks.

Cassian doesn’t answer in words, but scoots back on the bed until he’s up against the bulkhead, giving Bodhi room to slip beneath the covers. It isn’t until Bodhi has settled down, curling up against him that Cassian speaks.

“You can sleep here as often as you want.”

“Then... I think I’ll stay,” Bodhi answers.

@apolloniae Since you were the one who started all of this, I’m tagging you as well.

#bassian #sniperpilot #bodhi rook #cassian andor #spiritassassin #chirrut imwe #baze malbus #fic idea #mara's stuff

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