#however... he still works at the library and i've been seing him every time im there lately

[silenthillbunni]

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#hmm there's this librarian working at my local library.... #and i know him from before. i was in a bookclub that he was in charge of when i was like 14 #the books he chose are the reason i started reading again after a slump of like 2 years #he was always really nice and i felt an affinity w him bc he seemed to also be kinda awkward etc skksks #a couple of years later i was supposed to be in another bookclub that he lead but i ended up never going #he was very nice and tried saying hi to me and smalltalk etc for a while after #but since i was at that time really coming into my avoidant personality disorder #i was just weird and non responsive so obviously we just stopped interacting #however... he still works at the library and i've been seing him every time im there lately #he is SO cool and he has really grown into himself more and he is genuinely nice to ppl #also he was wearing a t-shirt today and i saw that he has tattoos @_@ #what im getting is that i think that i have a crush on him again skskksks #i did have a crush on him when i was 14 but it feels more appropriate now that im 25 lol #idk his exact age but he's younger. maybe in his early 30s i'd guess #*not younger that me younger than the librarian stereotype i mean lmao #but yeah my crush on him kinda revived and now im so sad bc i could've known him!!! i could've been able to talk to him #but i messed it up years ago 😔 so now it'd just be strange to strike up a convo. + im not sure he remembers me anymore #sighhhh. everytime i go to the library tho im like.. there he is... so dreamy.. he loves books and reading... #he was also very interesting and he just talks in a way that is compelling and like ugh #UGHHHHHH