#howie yan x gn reader

[jadeee]

A Warm Heart

Howie refuses to let you sulk alone in your dismal room.

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You tugged the covers around your head while Howie continued to spew nonsense. You weren’t sure what he was talking about since your mind was elsewhere.

He came to your cold, dark, and quiet house only to completely shift the atmosphere. The curtains were drawn, some old sitcom played in the background and - was he cooking?!

“I was thinking we could go out for lunch!” He shouted from the kitchen, “You don’t have much in your fridge.”

“Ugh,” you grumbled while curling yourself into a ball.

It was only now that you regretted reaching out to Howie. You felt down in the dumps and figured talking to him would help. He did that and some. He listened, talked, and drove all the way to your house.

“Howie, you don’t have to be here!” You shouted back with what little energy you had.

“Just go home already.” You muttered.

“Well,” his voice grew louder as he walked towards your room.

You rolled your eyes, I’m really not in the mood.

“I wanted to be here.” He sat on the opposite side of the bed and glanced down at you.

You rolled over so you wouldn’t have to look at him. Your eyes were red from crying.

He stared at the cocoon you now wrapped yourself in.

“I know we already talked but I felt like I had to see you.”

“I said ‘I was fine’, Howie.” Your eyes stung with incoming tears.

“It’s been a few days and staying inside isn’t helping, maybe -”

You whipped around to face him and dropped your blanket by your sides, “JUST GO HOME!”

His eyes nearly popped out of his head.

“I’m doing perfectly fine,” a tear fell from your face.

You turned your back to him and laid back down, “I’m just peachy.”

Howie hadn’t moved since your outburst, “I -” his eyes scanned the blanket you wrapped around yourself again.

“I’m sorry.”

You shut your eyes at how he sounded so small. At how you hurt him. You felt the bed lighten from his weight as he got up.

“Howie, I -”

Your eyes shot open as his arms wrapped around you.

“Hey, what are you doing?!!”

“We’re going out.”

He carried you in his arms across the room to your closet.

“What?! I said-”

“I know what you said,” he set you down gently “but just trust me okay?”

As quick as you glanced at him, you looked away. His eyes shined in the sunlight and he had a little smile on his face. You clutched the blanket around you.

“Okay… I’ll trust you.”

“Good, I’ll let you get dressed.” He smiled before leaving the room.

He shut the door behind him and you cursed under your breath.

~~~~~~

You tugged at your sleeves as Howie walked by your side.

“So where are we going?”

“I figured we could go to that one cafe on the corner.”

He ducked under a low tree branch.

“Paulie’s?”

“Yeah!”

A smile spread across your face “I haven’t been there in forever.”

“The food tastes even better! I’m not sure how, but it just does.”

He said hello to someone passing the two of you on the sidewalk.

You gave them a small nod before returning to your conversation.

“Do they still have that one dessert? What was it called?” You knit your brows together.

Howie glanced at you and silently grinned at your focused face.

“Paulie’s pie?”

“Yes!” You beamed at the phrase while remembering how delicious it was.

~~~~~~

“I can’t believe you ordered this first.” You dug your spoon into the pie

“Actually, I can.”

Howie knicked off a piece of the pie “Just eat it already!”

“Alright, alright!” You brought the spoon to your mouth. Immediately, you were taken back to your childhood.

“Mmm…”

“Delicious, right?” Howie mumbled with his mouth full of pie.

You nodded your head while finishing the last bit of your dessert.

“So...” Howie’s voice was clear.

“Please, I don’t wanna talk about it again.”

“Just answer this, are you really okay?”

He studied your face as he waited for your response.

“Of course not ... I got stood up.” You took a sip of your drink and tried to ignore the voices that flooded your head.

“It’s just -” you rubbed at your forehead.

Howie moved his chair towards you.

“I thought they liked me enough, y'know? I thought I was good enough. All the stuff they said. All the times we talked and -” you felt something wet run down your cheek.

“They don’t deserve you.” He grabbed a napkin off the table and dabbed your tears away.

You looked up at him. It took you a moment to realize you’d practically stopped breathing.

He was so close to you, you could smell his body wash. After he wiped your tears, he set the napkin down and leaned forward.

“You’re second-rate to no one,” he held onto your hand “and anyone who treats you less than is an idiot. Anyone should be lucky to call you ‘mine’.”

The corners of your lips turned up at the word and his eyes widened at the realization.

“I mean, ‘theirs’ not ‘mine’. I didn’t mean to -”

You chuckled at how his face turned pink.

“It’s fine. I know what you mean.” You glanced down at your hand which he still held onto.

He pulled back “We should probably go. I’m sure you wanna get back home.”

“Actually, I don’t wanna go home just yet.”

He smiled from ear to ear “Where should we go?”

~~~~~~

“Harder!” You yelled at the top of your lungs.

“Are you sure?”

You felt his hands push your back.

“I don’t want you to hurt yourself.”

The cold wind cut at your cheeks as you swung through the air.

“Just do it, Howie!”

“Whatever you say!”

You gripped the metal chains of the swing preparing for the push.

He pushed you so hard you felt like you were flying.

Your feet grazed against the leaves of a nearby tree. Birds chirped above and children laughed below. The sky was blue and the air was cold, but your heart was warm. Something rumbled from deep within you. Slowly but surely, you laughed. You laughed loud and unapologetically.

Unsure of what exactly was going on, Howie ran to the side of your seat. He watched your face as you swung back to him. His pinched brows relaxed when he saw the smile that graced your face. Your laughter echoed in his ears as you swung back up to meet the birds and the clouds.

~~~~~~

The two of you laughed at an old memory when you walked into your home. You took your shoes off by the door. Meanwhile, Howie stood by your side with his hands in his pockets.

“I should get going, but if you need anything call me!”

“You’re leaving?” You asked in a low voice while you took your coat off.

He raised a brow “Did you want me to stay?”

He tried not to smile at the thought in fear of giving off the wrong impression.

You set your coat onto a hook on the wall “Just for a bit… unless you have to go.”

“I can stay if you really want me to?”

“Don’t make me beg.” You joked.

“I’d never make you do something like that.” He grinned as he took off his shoes and set them next to yours.

~~~~~~

You put on the sitcom he played earlier since you ignored it then. You had so much fun you didn’t stay up long.

But he enjoyed the moments you did because he heard your laugh again. He saw your smile and the light in your eyes. Instead of watching the show or leaving when you fell asleep, he stayed by your side.

Your head was pressed against his shoulder. He reached for a nearby blanket and you nuzzled into him. He felt his cheeks go hot.

“Keep it together, Howie.” He quietly told himself.

After composing himself, he reached for the blanket again and held onto you so you wouldn’t fall. When he leaned back, he returned to the same position you were in, careful not to wake you. He draped the soft fabric over the both of you.

As he savored this moment, he drifted into sleep and dreamed a dream of you and him. When he woke, the blanket fell from him and acted as a pillow for your head which was in his lap.

He let out a small gasp and tried to refrain from making any sudden movements. He closed his mouth and thanked God that something sat between you and him. Your sleeping face was nearly pressed against his stomach. Every now and then, he could feel your breath through the fabric.

He was dismissive of the fact that his right arm was asleep since you laid on top of it. He didn’t care that his body felt stiff or that the tv asked ‘are you still there?’. I’m here, he thought, with the most beautiful person in the world.

~~~ A/N: I'm trying to keep this man alive 💓 he's so sweet and deserves everything in this world. "He grinned as he took off his shoes and set them next to yours" UGGHHHH 😭 thank you for taking time to read/like/reblog/comment! Feel free to tell me your favorite part.

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