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purpleponder · 2 months

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Hi purple. Sliding into your inbox once again. I just finished rewatching the entirety of kj and I think I need to sit down. Every single emotion I have ever felt back in 2017 is coming in full force like a slap to the face with a wet fish. Yes I mean ep51 specifically. I cannot. I cannot. I CANNOT. 7 YEARS LATER AND IM STILL OBSESSED WITH HOW MUCH JOKER AND HACHI CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER 😭😭 FOUND FAMILY BEFORE I EVEN KNEW WHAT WAS FOUND FAMILY 😭😭😭😭

THE TWO OF THEM MAKE ME SO ILL.... It's been years since I saw the scene again so now I'm looking through every line with fresh eyes and I and I and I 😭😭😭😭😭 I FORGOT HACHI RUSHES IN TO SAVE JOKER FIRST 😭😭😭 I FORGOT THE CALLBAVK TO EP1 I FORGOT HOW JOKER LITERALLY SPENDS HACHIS LAST MOMENTS TELLING HIM ABOUT ALL THE THINGS THEYLL DO AFTER THIS 😭😭😭😭 I FUXKING FORGOT "I COULDN'T MAKE A MIRACLE HAPPEN"................

I'm so normal about this I swear. I already went insane on my own post about this but I'm still not fucking over it. He couldn't make a miracle happen. Kaitou fucking joker. The fucking miracle maker. HE COULDN'T MAKE IT HAPPEN! HIS OWN FUCKING APPRENTICE! HIS LITTLE BROTHER! BLEEDING OUT IN HIS ARMS!!! A BULLET WENT THROUGH HIS FUCKING HEART AND HES HOLDING HIM TIGHT AND HE COULDNT DO ANYTHING TO SAVE HIM!!!!!!!!!!! THATS SO FUCKED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Did his mind just go blank? Was he actually out of trump cards? Who the fuck knows! All he fucking knows is that hachi just took a fucking bullet tot the chest and now there's blood all over his fucking hands!!! What the fuck was he supposed to do!!!!!

(Hi purple. I'm so normal about this you can tell. It's midnight and I'm evidently supposed to be asleep. Enjoy your day. It's 2024 and I'm still analysing the same damn episode I obsessed over as an 11 year old. )

Oh dude I haven’t watched the series in it’s entirety in FOREVER but you’re so fucking right about that episode. The fact that Joker had to watch someone, that was essentially his little brother, die in his arms as he could do nothing but watch because he actually fucking failed. He literally lost the will to do anything other than grieve his loss because he couldn’t do fucking more to save someone—like, I am also absolutely normal about this even if I haven’t watched it in years…

I bet he actually blanked when Spade warned them, like he was hurt and tired and Hachi just moved on fucking instinct. 12 year old me was not ready emotionally and you are so right to be so normal rn 😭. The horror on their faces when they realized what happened, when Joker slowly turned to see Hachi’s body, he probably wished he could’ve done more in that moment…

God now I gotta watch that episode again…

(Also don’t mind me that I saw this ask last night but I was just eepy :), now I can’t english properly and am only running on memories and emotions that I can recall but you are so so fucking right about that episode. Probably what introduced into angst or hurt/comfort now that I think about it…)

#this is literally bonding over shared childhood trauma lmao #KJ

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cavefairy · 6 months

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oh boy yall picked that one huh (this poll :3)

so !!!! the idea was based on my drive home after work every weekend, since i get off at like 1130ish every friday/saturday (always got me on closing shifts, i am constantly Very Eepy). windows down, music blasting thru a karaoke speaker on the floor of my passenger seat (my radio is ass and has no bluetooth/aux cord), drivin fast n theres no streetlights, just woods and sometimes the occasional car headed the opposite way. man. hits mf DIFFERENT. anyways.

so yeah i was like 'huh yeah im sleepy, i dont wanna drive. what if the sille goobers were with me. what if one was driving and the other was makin snarky comments from the backseat. and what if i (or a y/n. whatever) was just like. laid over dozing off on the sillie guy in the backseat. what then.' and yeaahhhhhhhh so i started writing when i got home. and then. forgot abt it lmao

was trying out the comic sans trick. where you write in comic sans and dont go back and edit until later and now that im looking back my spelling errors annoy the hell out of me but i dont wanna fix em and then really never touch this again bc if theres mistakes then i know ill have to come back to fix them and then ill be compelled to write more and yeah. im lying to myself. im not gonna finish this lmao

sidenote. hc that sun listens to almost exclusively disney music. and subjects anyone in the car with him to his carefully curated all time favorite disney songs playlist.

yes the little car mentioned is exactly what i drive atm. im saving for a new one. lil piece of shit car /aff (the old spiteful bitch is a 1997 and we have owned her for about 5 years. i started driving on this car. my older sibling used it as a practice car. my younger sister is supposed to start using it after i get a new one. man.)

how do the 8-10 ft tall jesters fit into a car that my three younger sisters hardly fit in around my school stuff ? who knows. clown car magic maybe.

#im not gonna tag this as my writing stuff. too eepy to remember my tag lol. also does it rlly count i mean this is stuff id remember

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