#i booked a study room at the library tomorrow! if it's approved fingers crossed im gonna bring my portable HEPA filter and some work stuff

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i got less than 1 hour of work done today (was aiming for 5-6) because I was too stressed out and frazzled from reading about/watching the ongoing genocide and also because roommate #2 came home today from their holiday travels and all day I could hear them hacking up their lungs through the wall. I texted them and asked if they minded taking a covid test, and they said they'd taken multiple over the past 24 hours and all were negative, but like. with the amount of false negatives on the rapid tests these days, even when people are symptomatic, that does NOT reassure me!! I've been holed up in my room with a flannel stuffed in the door crack, air filters blasting, wearing an N95 in common areas, but jesus fucking christ this is taking all my ability to focus and leaving none left over for my job. that i need to do. because i am precariously poor. and i need to buy food so i can eat. and pay rent so that i don't freeze to death. and pay for my medical and phone and other bills. etc.

#god im so stressed #fucking everyone has covid rn it's terrifying i really hope i can get through this surge unscathed #inshallah.... #i booked a study room at the library tomorrow! if it's approved fingers crossed im gonna bring my portable HEPA filter and some work stuff #and hopefully be able to concentrate better and get work done #god and i NEED to work on my grad school apps but how the fuck am i supposed to concentrate on that #the world is burning i see videos of genocide every day my roommates and coworkers constantly have the plague #and im so broke im always just barely scraping by and my only hope of upward mobility is grad school #talk about a vicious fucking cycle fr #personal #god whatever #i just remembered i have ice cream in the freezer! i think i'll have a bit of that n watch a dumb tv show