#i cant keep figuring out meds. so im just gonna wait until it settles in my system alright? :)

[puppetlooselystrung]

this week feels like its been 5 years and jesus fucking christ

#im about to. i dint know what im about to do but my god. do i feel like doing something #i hate college now ive decided. dont take so many writing only classes haha. ha. ha. #i hate papers. i nevrr finished the lne i was supposed to do last night. #i feel useless and stupid #i just wanna [slides finger over throat and clicks tongue] ya know. #real bad #every day i get increasingly more likely to panic text my mom hey mom cant do this anymore love you or some shit #i dont! it would end bad! very bad! but good lord. #i think im supposed to say something if my new meds make me feel more inclined to gi through the motions instead of ideation but #i cant keep figuring out meds. so im just gonna wait until it settles in my system alright? :)