#i cant rmr if i posted abt finding a bat while looking but. that happened

[fatcowboys]

still having a bad time which is why im so sporadic on here rn ✌😔

#cayenne still in the walls. very stressed and worriwd abt her #i cant rmr if i posted abt finding a bat while looking but. that happened #so i had to pause a lot of cat searching to wait for my less than stellar maintenance person #to deal w the bat bc i cannot deal w having to go thru rabies treatment rn lol #but. rhen there was no bat when he camr back. sooooooo #she has not come out for food or water ive had a camera pointed at the hole and nothing #i opened the hatch side where i found the bat now that hopefully. no bats #and bought a second camera to watch that side #the foster is coming out today to try and help. might try to live trap her if we can figure out where exsctlt she Is #im so scared there was a hole that let her out. so so so scared of that #they may have a wire camera thingy to use to try and look #but i put fresh food out regularly and the Good Shit #and have hsd no luck #im scared snd so sad and feel so bad tbis happened while she was in my care #like i know. theres only so much i can do #she busted thru a tiny whole she wanted Out bc she was so scared #but it still feels bad. and feels so bad that theres so little i can do. #ugh. this shit sucks #i truly cant go a few weeks withour something major happening #had to figure out housing stuff. got that fiured out #car broke down. got that figured out #had to physicially move. that sucked and was expensive. #and had s few gokd weeks of stable in new home w good roomies. time to bring another cat home hc ive been thinking about it for a while #oops. cat stuck in the wall :) good fucking luck #just exhausted lmao. i at least got a little time to recover but damn. #its all just a Lot lmfao #just. feeling a lil hopeless abt the whole situation lmao #i just want her to be okay. and im so scared shes not gonna be.