#i cant show vulnerability online. Pretend i didnt say anything.

[shadyhouse]

fuck it ill namedrop

tumblr user gayzorak is putting on an act for you all, hes not as “nice” or “cool” as he seems online and i honestly get why he has hatefollowers and a ton of people blocking him. i didnt understand before i thought it was a big misunderstanding but BOY IT FUCKING ISNT

he says he feels used, feels betrayed, feels like he cant trust anyone... he’s looking for attention because all i told him is that he reminds me of my ex friends and i dont want people like that in my life. ok.... if he was mature he would be able to get over it but NOPE he needs to gain as much traction to himself so he can form a little pity party with the people who are also stuck in his grasp. also, reminder, he’s almost 21 years old.

he’s guilt trippy and manipulative, he has bad opinions, he will control your life if you let him, he will inject himself into your personal life when you never asked him to do that in the first place. i should know, i talked to him for over 4 years and i can say with confidence that he was all of those things. i am extremely vulnerable and he KNOWS that. he’s making me out to be the bad guy, when in reality i did nothing wrong to him ever.

every time he got a callout or got in an argument (all the goddamn time, i wonder why) i would defend him, because i was misunderstood. at times when he was feeling bad about himself, i comforted him and told him i would always be his friend (that was before i saw him for who he really is). in return, he treated me like dirt. it seemed like it at least. he made fun of me constantly, in private chats and in public (even if it was just playful teasing, he did it so much that i couldnt tell what he really felt about me) meanwhile his other friends got put on a pedestal and i just sat around and watched. ive been treated like that before and i am not about that life, at all.

he wouldnt allow me to like things that he didnt like. if he disliked a show or game or w/e and i wanted to watch/play it, i would either do it in secret so he didn’t know or he would find out and suddenly love whatever it was. it felt so fake. for example, he hated osomatsu san because it was anime. but when i watched it, suddenly it was his favorite show. i could go on and on with instances like this.

he’ll pretend like he has no idea whats going on when he reads this, but he fucking does. like i said earlier, it’s an act.

he says that I caused him to be negative about things, but really it’s the opposite. HE was the most negative person ive met on here, lately he’s been acting like hes Super Nice !! and Approachable !! but once you have a one on one conversation with him you’ll understand why i had to cut him off.

this isnt a callout post or anything, it’s just 100% how i feel. i want him to stop fucking vagueing about me about stuff that isnt true and stop shit talking me to his friends. i didnt do anything to him but tell him i didnt want to be his friend anymore. there isnt some big deep meaning in this.

i just want you to stop vagueing me for things i never did. stop it. i dont want to start any fucking drama just take this post or leave it ok

#like i said this isnt a callout but if u wanna see it as one fucking go ahead i just want you to know im tired of you telling people about t #things i never did. things YOU did and youre covering up with me.